tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post1380043304436219930..comments2024-03-06T14:38:23.226-08:00Comments on And then she recovered.......: Lucky escapeRuby Tuesdayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-84479649148305471652012-07-19T01:27:57.904-07:002012-07-19T01:27:57.904-07:00Good to hear from you Winter, hope all is ok xGood to hear from you Winter, hope all is ok xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-75930026288357894072012-07-18T19:38:17.157-07:002012-07-18T19:38:17.157-07:00Hey ruby, sorry I haven't been around to comme...Hey ruby, sorry I haven't been around to comment much lately. Long story I will explain on my blog.<br /><br />Anyway I think it is okay to feel how you are feeling about the t.o.m I mean at least you know you can get it back and go on to have children in the future. That is if their is not too much damage done already. I know some prolonged effects can do that to you.<br /><br />Wow you are leaving next week! I am going to miss you so much already. Did you find a nice dress? I am sure whatever you have or find is going to look lovely on you. You must tell all about your trip to Italy. Try to enjoy yourself and relax :-)WinterAhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00337508298343862482noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-62705488475371662612012-07-18T07:47:42.376-07:002012-07-18T07:47:42.376-07:00Thank you Peri,
Love you too xThank you Peri,<br /><br />Love you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-3298500380607765552012-07-18T07:32:27.690-07:002012-07-18T07:32:27.690-07:00They gym scales mean nothing to me too. Not "...They gym scales mean nothing to me too. Not "real" scales, so the number doesn't count.<br /><br />Moving away from the place where the drug usage has become endemic and nearly a "normal" thing to do was very strong and brave.<br /><br />I personally do not want kids. I have abusive parenting models and inheritable psychiatric problems. I wouldn't wish that on a child at all.<br /><br />Omg that poor baby. I've heard about babies born addicted and having to go through withdrawal, but it's not that bigg of a problem here yet. (I say yet because it looks like people are tying to cash in on the success of P by introducing those drugs the gangs decided not to bother with in the 60s and 70s as being too much hassle)<br /><br />Ed will inevitably hitch a ride, but you can tell him to go sit in the corner like the irritating, spoiled and abusive brat he is. He'll jump up and down and scream and cry and throw tantrums and call you every name under the sun to try to get you to listen to him, but ultimately he is WRONG and full of shit.<br /><br />Love you and I hope you have fun in Italy <3Peridot (G+P)https://www.blogger.com/profile/07055351645100012755noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-24111789942434975252012-07-17T13:57:12.459-07:002012-07-17T13:57:12.459-07:00You're such a beautiful soul, Ruby.
I'll ...You're such a beautiful soul, Ruby.<br /><br />I'll be with you in spirit - this trip can be an opportunity to prove to ED that you are strong enough to oppose it. It has no right to destroy your life. None. <br /><br />Be kind with yourself. Progress, not perfection.<br /><br />xxHeddanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-47813719293300227502012-07-17T09:54:03.766-07:002012-07-17T09:54:03.766-07:00Thank you Hedda,
You are right, I do tend to fly ...Thank you Hedda,<br /><br />You are right, I do tend to fly between the past and the future and forget all about the present. I find it hard to enjoy the here and now.<br /><br />After I had written this post I did wonder if there was a middle ground between purging and restricting and I am trying to find it.<br />I am lucky in that my family all know I'm worried about this trip and they don't put pressure on me at all.<br />I'm going to try my best to enjoy this trip and it's not all about me, it's about my cousin h=whose getting married so I want to be there for her.<br /><br />Sending love right back atcha xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-63722056679747347122012-07-17T09:48:10.388-07:002012-07-17T09:48:10.388-07:00Thanks Rayya, I'm trying not to think about it...Thanks Rayya, I'm trying not to think about it too much but it's hard as it's all anyone is talking about, who knows maybe I'll have the time of my life, here's hoping!<br /><br />Love you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-33658172326703671502012-07-17T09:46:21.907-07:002012-07-17T09:46:21.907-07:00This is true, thanks xThis is true, thanks xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-21573570417867423492012-07-17T07:14:35.115-07:002012-07-17T07:14:35.115-07:00lovely blog, followed.
follow back xlovely blog, followed.<br />follow back xAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-71068167554219604872012-07-17T04:55:21.890-07:002012-07-17T04:55:21.890-07:00Hi Ruby,
continue to be honest with yourself abou...Hi Ruby,<br /><br />continue to be honest with yourself about how conflicted you feel of leaving ED. Remember, it is gradual process. No one expects you to be able to handle all aspects of life immediately. How sad it is when we think of it, how we've become dependent on such a destructive force. It is posssible to change both how you act and how you think through hard work, and I know you are strong enough to go through hell in order to get back to life.<br /><br />Do you ever feel like you live in the present? The here and now.<br />Often it seems as if your thoughts shift between memories from the past and concerns for the future. Do not let what might happen in the future prevent you from eating properly + taking care of your life today. <br />Your mind has close to agreed with itself that this trip will be either purge or restrict - are you able to prepare yourself to find a middleground? Be open about your worries with your therapist, see if you can find some "healthy strategies". If there is someone you can trust that is also attending the wedding, share your strategy with him/her and let this person be your ally against the demons within. <br /><br />You deserve to enjoy the wedding, hey - you deserve to enjoy life in general. It is not as easy as to "just leave ED at home", as it occupies a space within us. But you do not have to let it control you, it is possible to not act on urges. <br /><br />Sending you love and strength,<br />Hedda.Heddanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-6726895332961115652012-07-17T03:59:48.460-07:002012-07-17T03:59:48.460-07:00Hey hun.. I am sorry you are feeling down at the m...Hey hun.. I am sorry you are feeling down at the moment.. I never really had periods growing up as my ED started when I was about 11.. I got one at 15 and then one at 16.. and then after that it would come maybe once every 6 - 8 months. My weight fluctuated I ranged from normal BMI to an Anorexic BMI.. but I know what you mean.. the less periods I saw the more successful I felt at being a "valid" anorexic - as silly as that sounds.. But I dont use it as an indicator any more because it really is very unreliable and as Ex Anima said - it can stop for a great manner of things.. stress, hormones, medication, etc..<br />I hope you pick up some lovely clothes.. Lots of love as always sweety. Dont think about Italy too much, distract yourself, once you are there you will have a well deserved good time.. I usually worry about things and over think everything but once I am there it is fine.. <br /><br />Love you! xRayyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17119187530625796632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-60610446585843152682012-07-16T12:03:00.988-07:002012-07-16T12:03:00.988-07:00I've only recently stopped using my period as ...I've only recently stopped using my period as an indicator of my health because I've lost it at a relatively "normal" weight as well (stress; hormones). I've known some people who have lost it while being overweight as well. So, just because it's returned, it doesn't mean you're fully there yet, physically. Your disorder is just grasping at whatever it can find to scare you back in your hole.feihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08471804820756213391noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-49977009486610186502012-07-16T11:23:09.383-07:002012-07-16T11:23:09.383-07:00Thanks Kitty, take care of you too xThanks Kitty, take care of you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-51622790629909994952012-07-16T09:59:38.307-07:002012-07-16T09:59:38.307-07:00I really hope you can find a middle ground when yo...I really hope you can find a middle ground when you have your trip to Italy and that you can enjoy the wedding without food being in the way. <br /><br />The story about the baby really breaks my heart. I think as a soon to be mom I couldn't really handle seeing my baby going through something like that.. :( I probably couldn't watch any baby go through it :S I don't think I would even be able to watch the show.. <br /><br />take good care hon <3Kittyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-79008544582205335632012-07-16T07:42:41.827-07:002012-07-16T07:42:41.827-07:00Thanks Kate, I'll try my best to enjoy it xThanks Kate, I'll try my best to enjoy it xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-75514347864248009892012-07-16T07:06:17.427-07:002012-07-16T07:06:17.427-07:00Hey Ruby Rube x
Yet another post that makes the h...Hey Ruby Rube x<br /><br />Yet another post that makes the hairs on my arms stand up, If you ever wrete a book about your life, I would buy it. <br /><br />Wish we didnt have periods! Mine is two days late... pregnant? no, due to the way I have been eating? maybe. <br /><br />Enjoy Italy and the wedding :) xxKatehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18246519440988026435noreply@blogger.com