tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post2647696424587621769..comments2024-03-06T14:38:23.226-08:00Comments on And then she recovered.......: Summertime sadnessRuby Tuesdayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-17185359950052933312013-09-01T19:26:24.330-07:002013-09-01T19:26:24.330-07:00I'm glad you and your doctor are proceeding ca...I'm glad you and your doctor are proceeding carefully and thoughtfully. I think it's a really good sign that you're being vigilant about relapse. I think planning ahead for the feelings, thoughts, urges, etc. will help a lot. I have a lot of faith that you can keep pushing forward with reducing the methadone. Keep fighting!<br /><br />I'm also sad to see summer ending. Although I'm so grateful to have gone to treatment, I'm sort of left wondering where my summer went!Aliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10715046132281175549noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-40845165515004439092013-09-01T06:54:42.729-07:002013-09-01T06:54:42.729-07:00I think it is amazing that you have already been a...I think it is amazing that you have already been able to reduce your methadone from 70 to 30. I can't imagine how terrifying it must be for you which just makes your achievement all the more courageous. Hopefully you will be able to come off the final 30 in gradual increments - and just think how fantastic you will feel to be completely clean. You'll be sparkling with newness and the world will be your oyster! If you can do that, you can do anything.<br /><br />I can relate to the whole weight gain thing. ED never ceases to trick us into believing its lies. Will we ever learn indeed?!<br /><br />I can't wait to hear what you decide to get up to! Your creative writing course sounds great! Are there any other courses in the same place that you might be able to sign up to as well? Wow, Zumba, you're going to be so energetic! Let me know how it goes!!<br /><br />Personally, I'm glad the summer is over. I've been waiting all summer for college to start because, with having nothing to do, my ED has been getting out of control and I've lost far too much weight, and I hope that starting college kind of gets me back on track, if that makes sense?<br /><br />Loads of love to you Ruby XAngharad https://www.blogger.com/profile/03276065419684298280noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-16457399990282497002013-08-31T10:08:39.021-07:002013-08-31T10:08:39.021-07:00I think she should and definitely would err on the...I think she should and definitely would err on the side of caution if that fricken doc would let her! It's damaging to her health and mental stability to force a cutback that she's not ready for.. I hate your doc Rubes, I would really look into finding one who knows there stuff, he's obviously read a few books and thinks he's an expert now! Such a douche! Love you hunMe Destruithttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02817367432196715865noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-60744058917226799812013-08-31T10:04:38.287-07:002013-08-31T10:04:38.287-07:00Same here! I'm in denial! Still getting some s...Same here! I'm in denial! Still getting some scorchers here and can swim outside most days, so I'm staying in denial! I'm jealous, you get to have summer whilst were dealing with mounds of snow! Lol.. It seems like summer JUST started! It was such a long heavy winter though :( I am steering clear of all stores for a while! They are selling SNOWBOOTS ffs!! Lol, like really?? We're not likely to get any substantial snow til January at least! I'm already dreading it and the return of my SAD.. Means hibernating and weight gain :'(<br /><br />Glad summer is coming for you now tho.. It's your turn for summer, enjoy it!! <br /><br /> Peri come to Canada and feel some real chilblains ;) does your nose frost up in the winter where you are?? Lol..Me Destruithttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02817367432196715865noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-86319891020127207572013-08-30T18:48:19.303-07:002013-08-30T18:48:19.303-07:00I'm really pleased you managed to enjoy parts ...I'm really pleased you managed to enjoy parts of your summer :) and I hope you manage to find something to keep your mind distracted over autumn and winter - I know you love dancing so zumba could work, I'd just say be careful with the exercise thing tho, remembering your obsessive stepper machine tendencies from a few months ago? but if you'd enjoy it and it wouldn't trigger you, go for it! you're in my thoughts little one, I understand how frighetning the idea of relapse must be, I've recently gotten to know someone from the DBT group I now have to stop who was a serious alcoholic and her fear of relapse is intense, I know it's not quite the same, - how much of the fear of relapse is also a fear of letting go as well in disguise? if its been a part of your life for so long, and you sometimes still take all the meds in one go, how much of reducing the dose is a fear of letting go of an addition, or is it just the fear if you don't have that then you'll search elsewhere? I'd be interested to know your views because I don't understand drug addition as much as other addictions and want to more xxxxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-71146088171071860712013-08-29T17:20:39.426-07:002013-08-29T17:20:39.426-07:00You deserve a thousand and more good summers Ruby!...You deserve a thousand and more good summers Ruby! I think you have enormous strength and will power. You have so many acheivements that perhaps you should err on the side of caution when it comes to coming off your meth? I dont know- I am completely naive about these things but it would be terrible to overload yourself and trip up with coming off it with all those implications.<br /><br />Anyway, I'll leave that decision to you! Isn't it amazing how you can be so, SO convinced of masses of weight gain and it is not true. I wonder how many times it takes for us to trust that outcome?!<br /><br />Keep going!! <br /><br />xxxxxxxxxxAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13151849011637071775noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-55302449164348144862013-08-29T01:41:20.101-07:002013-08-29T01:41:20.101-07:00I'm so glad that you have had a good summer! H...I'm so glad that you have had a good summer! Having a hobby really does help doesn't it? Have you ever thought of studying something via distance? In Australia we have a college called Open Universities. You can study just one unit or even work it up to double the full time workload. It's all online including submitting tests and assessments. I am studying through them and I think it's the only thing that helps keep my sanity. I couldn't cope going to a college or university, but I can study at my own pace. You don't have to work towards a degree. You could even just pick any subject that interests you. Just something to think about :)<br /><br />Summer is coming in Australia and I am very excited. Last winter was my lowest point and this winter has been pretty bad as well. But my mood and coping methods always improve in summer. <br /><br />Hope you are well Ruby :) xJesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16656471149407192267noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-13065697268055984102013-08-28T22:40:42.268-07:002013-08-28T22:40:42.268-07:00You are rightfully terrified of relapse!They'r...You are rightfully terrified of relapse!They're taking it really slowly though. That's good. they probably can't ethically keep you on it when it starts causing major health problems on top of your ED though :/ GAH! STUPID ETHICS!<br /><br />Yeah, only a few months. That makes it scarier :9 *hugs you tightly*<br /><br />Lol, silly Ruby XD Your Ed will keep lying to you like that and if you keep listening to it you'll keep chasing your tail every time you take a holiday :p<br /><br />Fucking hell, you realise if you do Zumba you're going to need to eat more so you can (calorically) afford to do the exercise without fucking yourself up the ass? (Of course you do, but you know me) Um random hobby ideas:<br />Juggling (Heaps of fun)<br />Knitting (SOCKS!)<br />Crochet (More portable than knitting)<br />Gardening (Pretty flowers)<br />Computer game design (Look at Dwarf Fortress, FFS!)<br />Do NaNoWriMo with me (I need a buddy to poke me along)<br />Dollmaking<br />Coreography<br />3D animation<br />yeah now my brain just falls on it's face >.< Sorry!<br /><br />I'm sad to see winter go. I like cool weather, but I hate chilblains. Summer is gonna be a bitch with this massive garden to try to restore. FUCK my brother was a moron! COOCH GRASS AND ENGLISH IVY AND THISTLES FUCKING EVERYWHERE! I shit you not, Miles found a massive chrome penis statue in the front yard that feels like it weighs 5kg or something. Blimey!<br /><br />Sending you tons of love from the springtime at the bottom of the world <3Peridot (G+P)https://www.blogger.com/profile/07055351645100012755noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-60358125739993898362013-08-28T21:36:49.918-07:002013-08-28T21:36:49.918-07:00Ruby I teach Zumba!!! I totally recommend it. It&...Ruby I teach Zumba!!! I totally recommend it. It's so freeing! I've had anorexia for well over a decade and once I discovered Zumba it gave me a reason to eat (at least more than I was.) Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06785330375052723998noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-62647778927728834372013-08-28T18:36:05.068-07:002013-08-28T18:36:05.068-07:00I had a good summer, I was able to see my grandson...I had a good summer, I was able to see my grandson who is two for the first time. My sister came for a visit... I hadn't seen her in 8 years.<br /><br />Mostly I started and continued eating right and exercising... all in all it was a good summer ;-)Launna https://www.blogger.com/profile/09447311902825477772noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-3495740883422930772013-08-28T07:46:52.077-07:002013-08-28T07:46:52.077-07:00Really pleased Ruby that you are going to pursue p...Really pleased Ruby that you are going to pursue positive things in your life and you took a leap of faith and didn't gain 6lbs or 7lbs, hope this gives you some confidence in your body and metabolic rate! My summer has been hard, my throat is so sore from feeling under pressure to 'p' not necessarily b/p after meals with parents being quite forceful with food. Wish there was a way I could tell them I need to stop having food thrust in my face so I can try and eat anything and keep it down. Anyways for all those reasons I am glad I am going back to uni at the end of September, it gives me focus, even if it is only part time. I think your doctor sounds harsh, I feel like GPs dnt know much about EDs or addiction, it's easy for them to say 'don't worry' it's not them facing their daemons everyday! Stay strong, I believe I'm you. XxxVhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07895355278924545494noreply@blogger.com