tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post3690611357926499829..comments2024-03-06T14:38:23.226-08:00Comments on And then she recovered.......: AnxietyRuby Tuesdayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-41543121154124686752014-04-09T03:13:07.011-07:002014-04-09T03:13:07.011-07:00I have found that I create more anxiety for myself...I have found that I create more anxiety for myself when things are going okay. I am fine when I am in the middle of an emergency or crisis but I freak myself out when I have to pick something simple like which bread to buy. I guess when I am in crisis mode I feel shit can't get worse or I don't have the time to second guess myself. josie13https://www.blogger.com/profile/03988386743210558148noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-24292525767078025812014-04-06T23:03:25.064-07:002014-04-06T23:03:25.064-07:00I hate anxiety. Mine comes from being rasied by an...I hate anxiety. Mine comes from being rasied by an abusive mother. Fear of the unknown and all that.<br /><br />Yours sounds like hell!<br /><br />So long as I have steady income and a place to live I'm ok, but the element of the unknown with things like that makes me panic.<br /><br />Sometimes I can look at everythign I've survived and go "Hah, I've seen worse. Fuck you life, BRING IT! Shit happens and I don't care." and others I'm a terrified wreck chewing my nails to the bone. UGH.<br /><br />I've got no good advice for dealing with it >.< I pretend everything is fine and act all confident and then fall apart after when it's safe to do so OR I've run out of the ability to cope. Blargh.<br /><br />Oooooh come bungy-jump with me? Kawarau is GREAT for it! :D Jet boats too!<br /><br />Love you <3Peridot (G+P)https://www.blogger.com/profile/07055351645100012755noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-14262308793886456512014-04-06T13:13:19.830-07:002014-04-06T13:13:19.830-07:00I'm the same as you with my anxiety Ruby. It w...I'm the same as you with my anxiety Ruby. It was never a problem until I started isolating myself more and more with my ED. In January i decided at the age of 30 and 'feel the fear and do it anyway' and start driving lessons. Before each and every one of my lessons i feel physically sick and every instinct tells me not to do it. Everything is a potential hazard; what if that dogs lead snaps and it runs into the road? what if that person crossing quite far ahead falls and i can't stop in time etc etc? I also get anxious about little things like getting a taxi (what if the driver wants to talk to me or asks what i do for a living (nothing)) and getting a grocery delivery because i think they might be judging what i buy. The list goes on...but ask me to do a parachute jump or paragliding and i'm first to do it.gymmonsterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18025003841936886879noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-27879998793572366212014-04-06T05:04:36.000-07:002014-04-06T05:04:36.000-07:00I never used to have anxiety, I think things just ...I never used to have anxiety, I think things just spiralled since January, and then since the past 2 weeks I cannot convince myself im not dying, I'm being hysterical, I don't recognise myself, I've been sent to a&e twice from the pain that is supposedly just being causwed by anxiety and stress, I keep having irrational thoughts - a piece of hair fell out and suddenly I was afraid all my hair would fall out if I so much as touched a strand. I had a pain in my stomach that made me dizzy and I convinced myself I'd lost the ability to walk. there was a puddle next to the washing machine and I thought the roof was going to fall in, the NHS taxi man came to the door and I thought it was the burglar. It's debilitating isn't it, I feel like my mind is falling to pieces and showing itself in a delusional state. they think I've gone mental. when I first got here when I cried it was like tears were bursting out of my leg muscles. when I eat I feel blood dripping down inside of me as if my stomach is in pain. it feels so real and its so scary and I don't have a clue what has happened to me in the space of 2 weeks. I guess I just flipped. please be careful, reach out and ask for help, we are closer to being sectioned and losing everything that we like to think, I've discovered that the past few weeks and I know you have been in very dark and low places. if you struggle, ask for help, please don't let it get so bad that coming back to the surface becomes such an unreachable aim. it's already feeling so far away for us, don't let it get further out of your grasp xxxxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-12662154296965537392014-04-05T23:33:37.698-07:002014-04-05T23:33:37.698-07:00I'm sorry you experience such bad anxiety Ruby...I'm sorry you experience such bad anxiety Ruby. You're right though; a lot of the time, the anticipation's worse than the situation itself. Anxiety rules my life, more than words can describe. It's completely debilitating 24/7. I think it's my biggest barrier in life. I was first diagnosed at age 12 but I've experienced it for as long as I can remember. I used to take a lot of sick days off school, from the time I started til the time I dropped out. I felt so sick all the time, but nothing was wrong, physically speaking. It's only in retrospect I realize it was anxiety. It seems as years go by, it just gets worse and worse. <br />Big hugs to you dear. I hope you're okay. Love you <3 xxBellahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07544398450025713725noreply@blogger.com