tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post7404018540789299538..comments2024-03-06T14:38:23.226-08:00Comments on And then she recovered.......: Nothing changes if nothing changesRuby Tuesdayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-6403721386347733062012-09-26T00:36:47.064-07:002012-09-26T00:36:47.064-07:00Thanks Tatyana, you are a sweetie xThanks Tatyana, you are a sweetie xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-59189567034993628722012-09-26T00:35:46.199-07:002012-09-26T00:35:46.199-07:00This was such a lovely comment, thank you
That is...This was such a lovely comment, thank you<br /><br />That is what keeps me going, knowing there must be a reason for all of this<br /><br />Love you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-92020235300293063812012-09-25T16:10:01.503-07:002012-09-25T16:10:01.503-07:00I had to actually sleep over night before answerin...I had to actually sleep over night before answering to this. Darling, recovery of course. It's there, now you go the possibility to recover so take it. Do it, like you said this shit is always here waiting for you. <br /><br />Life can be scary, hard and even impossible from time to time but in the end it's always something we can learn from because the hard things stand there for different reasons. Sure we can learn from ed too and become better at it but in the end we just keep repeating the same lessons and never move forward. <br /> I really want to see you to get better now. Your suffering has been too long and all of us deserve a better life. You can do this Ruby, it's a decision and once you've make it, it's easier to work for it. <br /><br />Wish you well, and I'm here - if my VNP connection just allows me. Tatyanahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11596024097630792471noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-38750271085020612782012-09-25T13:40:33.058-07:002012-09-25T13:40:33.058-07:00Hey lovely. It really sucks to see you like this, ...Hey lovely. It really sucks to see you like this, knowing I can only say words through an e-mail or comment. I can't look you in the eye when I type this or give you a hug. I wish we didn't have to deal with all of this. I talked to a man last night at a meeting I have and he said something that I'm going to keep in mind. "We're never done dealing with things, there's always something." Not in a negative thing, but the fact that even though we move on from something, we can't just forget about it, we have to use it to make us stronger instead. We got up and shared our stories last night, and I was open, but only about a specific issue. I talked about my past issues of cutting, and I'm over that now, I will never never do it again, but I didn't mention anything about my ED history. I'm recovering, but not in recovery, if that makes sense. I'm trying my best to look at food differently, but I'm not putting 100% of my energy in it...idk, it's confusing. But today is today. It's a choice only you can make. Maybe read this blog post? I quite like it. It's helping me through this challenge. https://www.wholelifechallenge.com/articles/24<br /><br />I love you hon. Hang in there. Somehow through all the stuff you've been through in life, all the drugs, all the hospitals, all the break downs, you are still here. God or fate or whatever could have let you starve to death or OD or people could have given up on you. But you are still here. Now stick around to figure out what that reason is. <3PrettyLieshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14074616303471229792noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-63824740499023308872012-09-25T11:09:58.617-07:002012-09-25T11:09:58.617-07:00I wish I had too, hopefully some day we will all g...I wish I had too, hopefully some day we will all get through this xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-3009502187383540502012-09-25T08:01:09.085-07:002012-09-25T08:01:09.085-07:00When you write, 'Reading their posts is like r...When you write, 'Reading their posts is like reading my own thoughts<br />It breaks my heart to know that we are all going through the same thing', it feels like you have taken the words right out of my mouth. I hate the thought of yourself, or anyone, suffering in this way, because I know how terrible it feels, and you do not deserve to feel this way at all. I only wish I had a magic wand to make all the hurt and pain go away and for everyone to experience some form of freedom and happiness. XXAngharad https://www.blogger.com/profile/03276065419684298280noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-28572141585180274912012-09-25T00:13:30.128-07:002012-09-25T00:13:30.128-07:00Darling Rayya your comments always lift my spirits...Darling Rayya your comments always lift my spirits<br />You are a dear friend to me and I am grateful for that<br /><br />Love you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-8592235610941734542012-09-25T00:11:43.140-07:002012-09-25T00:11:43.140-07:00Good to hear from you Mary, I was wondering how yo...Good to hear from you Mary, I was wondering how you were<br /><br />I know, there are too many of us suffering which makes me so sad<br /><br />Love to you xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-45830543888541026522012-09-25T00:10:03.758-07:002012-09-25T00:10:03.758-07:00Dearest Loulou, I wish I could do something to hel...Dearest Loulou, I wish I could do something to help<br />Yes, I do know what you mean<br /><br />Stay in touch,<br /><br />Love ya xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-56831675751279388512012-09-24T14:56:00.129-07:002012-09-24T14:56:00.129-07:00Oh Ruby, it pains me to read that you are feeling ...Oh Ruby, it pains me to read that you are feeling so low right now, i know you are a fighter, i need you to keep trying for me. Death is what the ED wants and you cant let it win. it just is not right.. you are such a strong person and i know how tempting those whispers can be.. i love you and want you to hang in there.. well done for seeing your friend. sometimes it takes so much effort to get stop ourselves sinking so i am so very proud of you for doing it <3 love you soo much, believe me when i say that no one could fill your place, you deserve to live, not to be robbed of life, so fight Ruby, cos I am right here, fighting alongside you and we can beat this.<br /><br />Love you xRayyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17119187530625796632noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-29788903505560337722012-09-24T13:27:30.060-07:002012-09-24T13:27:30.060-07:00Sorry been away from blogging for a while and just...Sorry been away from blogging for a while and just catching up. I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. All I can say to that is, 'I know!' I know how you feel. It's horrible when it sneaks up on you. My recent relapse is an example. I just went on a diet...<br /><br />Hang on in there. You are not alone.<br /><br />Aggy xJane Richeldishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12992748421039359956noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-23077905437873280752012-09-24T12:15:05.559-07:002012-09-24T12:15:05.559-07:00i am, all by myself. i don't know what to thin...i am, all by myself. i don't know what to think. i never wanted to die,i just did not want the life ahead. and now i do not know how to live at all. oh ruby ruby ... the ED is just the surface...isn't it? i have such a love for life is lethal--do you know what i mean?<br />big hug, hun.<br />xLoulouhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08038435727531749819noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-51119212536553096212012-09-24T12:06:38.822-07:002012-09-24T12:06:38.822-07:00I just want to hug you too Loulou
I know we're...I just want to hug you too Loulou<br />I know we're not ok<br />I feel at my wits end but I still keep going further and further in to the madness<br /><br />Are you home? xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-70743075934270446362012-09-24T10:40:26.352-07:002012-09-24T10:40:26.352-07:00We are not ok, ruby. i am scarred and it was seri...We are not ok, ruby. i am scarred and it was serious, i am not a borderline person at all. rubbish body great body whatever. iam skinnier than ever and i hate it. can you hear ot world, i hate it. it's just a result of the pain. ruby check out please, check out of this it does not make things any better. i might not make sense, i just want to hug you babe.<br />xxxxxLoulouhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08038435727531749819noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-76524268781673508282012-09-24T10:10:05.785-07:002012-09-24T10:10:05.785-07:00That's great Ebba, I'm so glad! xThat's great Ebba, I'm so glad! xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-31179025961355608472012-09-24T07:51:29.778-07:002012-09-24T07:51:29.778-07:00I just want to add, reading this post was very ins...I just want to add, reading this post was very inspirational! Feel inspired to go and change something in my life now as well!! Cheers!! XAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07430097858916936408noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-80423643700884623442012-09-24T07:37:08.396-07:002012-09-24T07:37:08.396-07:00Thanks Ebba, for your kind words
It's so true,...Thanks Ebba, for your kind words<br />It's so true, isolation is like fuel for my eating disorder<br />I didn't want to go out today but I made myself and I was so glad I did.<br />Getting out the door is my problem.<br /><br />Much love to you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-6094479215032978042012-09-24T07:35:01.403-07:002012-09-24T07:35:01.403-07:00That is so sad about your uncle Peri,
It is such a...That is so sad about your uncle Peri,<br />It is such a scary thought<br />I took the first step today and went to see my friend<br />I can feel my mood lifting already<br />I'm going to take tiny, teeny babysteps and hopefully they'll add up to big steps<br /><br />Thanks Peri<br /><br />Love you xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-57541826764643383762012-09-24T06:11:11.951-07:002012-09-24T06:11:11.951-07:00Chose the way to recovery Ruby! Give it your best!...Chose the way to recovery Ruby! Give it your best! You have 12 years to take back, the next 12 you should fill with passion for what you love and joy, but most of learn to accept yourself, love yourself. Remember the only thing holding you back is yourself. No one would love you less if you put on a couple of punds, most people wouldn't even notice. It's your eating disorder tricking you again. Stay strong, glad you're meeting up with your friend. Isolation only makes things worse. Much love. XAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07430097858916936408noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-55520040149629373542012-09-24T05:52:20.152-07:002012-09-24T05:52:20.152-07:00*Hugs*
Listen to Mary? Bin the pills, break the s...*Hugs*<br /><br />Listen to Mary? Bin the pills, break the stepper. Maybe you and your Mum can have a stepper-breaking party and celebrate it's demise with hot chocolates?<br /><br />Do it for them, and do it for you. There was something that occurred to me at work today. I remembered Grandpa.S and Uncle.M. Uncle.M never learned to manage his issues so he could live independently, and spent most of his life living with Grandpa.S and Grandma.S before she died. Within months of Grandpa.S being medically forced into a resthome Uncle.M lost it completely without anyone to care for him and ended up locked in a mental hospital. I thought is you ending up like him and wanted to cry, but I that that you at least have that tiny spark of desire to fight that Moe never did.<br /><br />Retreat into inevitable madness and death or forge on into the bright unknown with a sail made of words? Let go and fall into the inferno or write your own Iliad?<br /><br />Take back what it took and break the bitch's hands. You ever seen Firefly? Listen to Mal:<br />"If someone tries to kill you, you kill them right back!"<br />http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0579532/quotes?qt=qt0457278<br /><br />I used to do that too. If I fucked up the semester I could kill myself. By the end of the semester I'd have done well enough to move on to the next one and something interesting sometimes came up. Fuck, how did I ever graduate?<br /><br />Love you so much Ruby. You're too awesome to deserve a death like that. You should go out in a blaze of glory taming lions on Mt.Everest or as an old biddy whom the world holds in reverence, fear and awe passing peacefully in her sleep.<br /><br />Kia kaha, BAMFRuby <3Peridot (G+P)https://www.blogger.com/profile/07055351645100012755noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-69287593977351784612012-09-24T05:31:26.271-07:002012-09-24T05:31:26.271-07:00Thank you Greta for your encouraging words
You are...Thank you Greta for your encouraging words<br />You are so right, the anaesthetic is definitely not working for me anymore, it is poison<br />Today I'm taking baby steps to help myself<br />I went to see my friend so that is a start<br /><br />Love to you xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-76018929634308212002012-09-24T05:29:00.196-07:002012-09-24T05:29:00.196-07:00Thanks Kitty,
I won't give up just yet xThanks Kitty,<br /><br />I won't give up just yet xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-37981775611954000142012-09-24T03:44:18.431-07:002012-09-24T03:44:18.431-07:00Sweetie, life is hard – sometimes feels unbearable...Sweetie, life is hard – sometimes feels unbearable, we starve and purge and cut and drink because we don't want to feel any of it. Starve and purge and cut and drink because we need an anesthetic and it works. For awhile. But then the anesthetic turns into poison and by then it's too late because we are maintaining it now, straight into our souls. It is rotting us and we seem can't stop. <br />But WE CAN. <br />I and you. We can. <br />Gretahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17253626550462968102noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-8744171390779649962012-09-24T03:43:32.722-07:002012-09-24T03:43:32.722-07:00Honey, it is not too late to stop - get proper hel...Honey, it is not too late to stop - get proper help and let the next 12 years of your lige be a new start.. <br />ED's break us down in a way no one really understand, but I really believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.. Just don't give up.. Kittyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.com