tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post7704052846517865115..comments2024-03-06T14:38:23.226-08:00Comments on And then she recovered.......: Falling slowlyRuby Tuesdayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-24527237680845615572012-07-09T08:00:46.690-07:002012-07-09T08:00:46.690-07:00Ruby,
you are not broken beyond repair. There is a...Ruby,<br />you are not broken beyond repair. There is always another way, another direction to take your healing process. Right now it seems as if you're banging your head in the same dark wall, becoming more and more frustrated with life. With yourself. <br /><br />What do you feel in your heart would be right for you? Or perhaps that is not the correct word, what do you think would be safest for your journey back to life? To go IP? There is no weakness in such a decision, only courage. <br /><br />It pains me to read these words, because I know how it feels. Hopeless. Empty. Dreading the next day, knowing it will be filled with food obsessions and forcing ourselves to do even the smallest thing. And longing for isolation. It is hard to never feel even the slightest sense of peace within. ED doesn't provide us with peace, nor does recovery. <br /><br />You deserve better than this Ruby. You deserve to be supported back to life. To have someone helping you get in sufficient nutrition, be with you when the demons rage. You really do deserve it. Your life has a purpose, but ED makes you blind to it. <br /><br />With love,<br />Hedda.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-42190714009489113432012-07-09T04:08:40.452-07:002012-07-09T04:08:40.452-07:00Oh my.. *hugs* - I hope you are feeling better by ...Oh my.. *hugs* - I hope you are feeling better by the time you get this love. <br /><br /><3Kittyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-87563011305836114682012-07-09T03:59:46.262-07:002012-07-09T03:59:46.262-07:00Thank you so much xThank you so much xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-64438960076960079432012-07-09T02:41:56.673-07:002012-07-09T02:41:56.673-07:00*hugs* I've been where you are many times and ...*hugs* I've been where you are many times and it does massively suck. I hope you find the strength to recover or things at least improve for you. XJane Richeldishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12992748421039359956noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-82261109588496632132012-07-09T02:21:04.945-07:002012-07-09T02:21:04.945-07:00You can do this, like I've said before. You...You can do this, like I've said before. You're one of the strongest persons I've ever known and you can pull through. Signs, certainly, take them now and get better and keep inspiring people to do so too. When writing these questions you've been doing lately are the most constructive things all of us need to think about. We do think a lot - often too much, but when thinking gets conversation-like with someone, it's more likely to bring up something new to both sides. <br /><br />Stay strong, sweetie - when ever you think of those pills and overdose remember that I'd rather love you to death than let you actually do that ^^. I just heard about one blogger who was admitted to hospital because she tried to overdose few days ago. Not fun. At all.<br /><3Tatyanahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11596024097630792471noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-17614996055120997272012-07-09T01:24:03.849-07:002012-07-09T01:24:03.849-07:00I have just stumbled across your blog but just hav...I have just stumbled across your blog but just have to comment on this. There is always, always another way out from whatever you're going through. It may take pain and hard work and support and tears but choose life. Can you imagine how upset your mother would be if you died? Please reach out and get the help you need. Oh and as an ED nurse, don't touch those painkillers. I have worked on shifts where people have overdosed on drugs that have been absorbed by the blood. They come into hospital begging for us to save them because they have changed their mind but because the pain killers have already been absorbed into their blood all we can do is give them a bed, call their family and lie and tell them that they aren't going to die-then wait for the inevitable. Ironically it is a very painful and degrading way to die..as are all suicide methods. There is always a better way. Just because you don't intend to do this now doesn't make suicidal thoughts to be something that you can ignore. Please get help!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-65958286862981223292012-07-09T00:19:45.483-07:002012-07-09T00:19:45.483-07:00Thank you, love you too xThank you, love you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-40639941718571766202012-07-08T18:39:19.258-07:002012-07-08T18:39:19.258-07:00So, I wrote a very long comment yesterday but my I...So, I wrote a very long comment yesterday but my Internet decided to screw up. But I completely agree with you on the whole signs thing. I think you should try to be as honest with mary as you can tomorrow, I really hope it's a good session. Love you hon, let me know how it goes.PrettyLieshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14074616303471229792noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-35726468954417737212012-07-08T13:06:41.439-07:002012-07-08T13:06:41.439-07:00You don't have to just wish to be better, it m...You don't have to just wish to be better, it might not happen today, or tomorrow, or anytime very soon, but you CAN be better at some point. If you can overcome drug addiction and shoplifting, this too can be beaten.<br /><br />I am so sorry that you're having a super rough time right now. Please know that your mother loves you and wants you to be better too.<br /><br />I am here to support you and want you to be mentally and physically as healthy as possible.désespérée de maigrirhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02317437591022451978noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-41429973331238900212012-07-08T08:44:18.150-07:002012-07-08T08:44:18.150-07:00Hi there, thanks for commenting :) I'll defini...Hi there, thanks for commenting :) I'll definitely be spending my Sunday catching up on your blog as well lolCammiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05412899417303078708noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-13276860886396792002012-07-08T04:32:38.053-07:002012-07-08T04:32:38.053-07:00Thank you so much Peri
I'm drinking a lot of ...Thank you so much Peri<br /><br />I'm drinking a lot of water with lemon to flush all this water out of me, I hope it's quick<br /><br />I'm hanging on in the hope that things will improve<br /><br />Thank you for your kind words<br /><br />Hope you're ok too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-40572432184662104222012-07-08T04:26:15.799-07:002012-07-08T04:26:15.799-07:00I watch those shows to trigger myself, but it does...I watch those shows to trigger myself, but it doesn't work coz the only thing that can really trigger me right now is the scale :/<br /><br />Water retention goes away very quickly if you keep drinking enough water. Diuretics don't work reliably coz they CAUSE the problem they're trying to fix o.O Last month I gained 1.7kg in water weight OVER NIGHT and it took less than a week of determined hydrating to get it to go away again. Your body thinks you're in Africa with no rain and tried to hold on to as much fluid as it can. When it gets regular water it realises that DUH you're not in a drought and stops holding on to it all.<br /><br />I used to do that at uni. If I failed the semester I could give up and jump off Lawyer's Head, if I passed I could give it another shot. Weird how these things work sometimes, ay.<br /><br />These days only the thought of coffee gets me out of bed. . . sitting down with knitting or at the spinning wheel keeps me from crawling back in. (Of course, work forces me to stay out of bed but not today :/)<br /><br />You are NOT broken beyond repair. I call BULLSHIT. You've fought and beaten so much, so naturally you're feeling tired. Don't you DARE give up on yourself. If you keep waving your middle finger at it (Even if you can't do anything else) it will evenutally fuck the hell off and you'l be able to do all the things the "normals" do without thinking of it.<br /><br />Actually you'll be BETTER than a normal person coz you'll place the true value on all the things they take for granted. (Lucky smarmy fuckers, those normal people)<br /><br />http://youtu.be/HIVdWlpya1k<br />Let other help carry you for a bit, until you're strong enough to walk again.<br /><br />Kia kaha, don't ever give up.Peridot (G+P)https://www.blogger.com/profile/07055351645100012755noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-66240176865206214692012-07-08T01:11:49.655-07:002012-07-08T01:11:49.655-07:00Thanks Winter xThanks Winter xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-78847269148526756392012-07-07T21:11:46.563-07:002012-07-07T21:11:46.563-07:00Hi Ruby. I may not have a full blow eating disord...Hi Ruby. I may not have a full blow eating disorder but I think I do know what you mean about wanting to be able to eat and be okay with it. It's hard though....<br /><br />As I have said I know you are trying really hard. It's just not that easy. There was this one women on Oprah over a course of 10 maybe 20 years. She had anorexia and over the time she recovered 3 times and relapsed each time. I still remember Tracey Gold talking to her and the lady was crying it said it was so hard and she can't get better. It was so sad.<br /><br />Sorry if this didn't make you feel any better. I just wanted you to know this is going to be hard to beat and it can take years. But you can beat it.<br /><br />I hope you feel better *hugs*WinterAhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00337508298343862482noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-42541785779067042482012-07-07T07:59:34.378-07:002012-07-07T07:59:34.378-07:00Thank you sweet P
I will talk to Mary this week, ...Thank you sweet P<br /><br />I will talk to Mary this week, I just need to make a decision one way or the other, at least then I won't be in this hellish limbo<br />Thanks for your kindness<br /><br />Love you xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-53723452707442431302012-07-07T07:42:44.833-07:002012-07-07T07:42:44.833-07:00ruby, lovely, darling ruby
you are not broken bey...ruby, lovely, darling ruby<br /><br />you are not broken beyond repair, and what you wish you will achieve with time and effort if that is what you wish<br /><br />i understand about the suicide, but try and hold on, see mary, rant and vent and let it out, let the darkness seep out of you to let some light in.<br /><br />could you have some of the reduced salt soups? i know they are slightly higher in calories, but ive got some under 100kcals before<br /><br />xxxxPersephone Paixhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07636384401701974785noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-6769165273504924262012-07-07T05:50:30.640-07:002012-07-07T05:50:30.640-07:00Thank you Rayya for your kind words.
I feel at a ...Thank you Rayya for your kind words.<br /><br />I feel at a loss today but I won't harm myself, I promise<br />I just feel so overwhelmed at the moment<br />It comforts me to know you are there and I'm grateful for your unwavering support<br />I will be ok, just need to get through the next few days<br /><br />I love you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-43531188202712077072012-07-07T04:48:05.049-07:002012-07-07T04:48:05.049-07:00Oh Ruby! I am heartbroken that you feel this way, ...Oh Ruby! I am heartbroken that you feel this way, I know all too well the feeling of waking up and not being able to face the day, just letting the sleep take you away. But this is not the end for you my dear. I repeat THIS IS NOT THE END. You always have choices, I know some choices are too unbearable to face, but one thing you can choose is whether you will fight these feelings and choose to live. I believe there is a plan for everyone, these things that have happened they are obstacles to get over, to defeat and to overcome. Your mother is crying, because she is picturing what could happen to you if you worsen or dont get better. She loves you, endlessly - that is clear from how much she does for you, how she is looking after you and never fails to be there for you.. How crushed would she be if you were to die. I firmly believe that she would not be able to cope with it. She loves you, because of you. Because you are her daughter, her wonderful beautiful daughter. She looks after you, because she knows you are unwell and she wants you to live. I know you can pull through this. I know you are strong enough, you have to trust yourself. Trust that things can get better, trust that there is a world out there waiting for you to embrace. It wont be easy, but not much in this life is easy. That healthy girl, that picture of perfection, that could be you if you want it. Taking the easy way out will only numb the pain for a fraction of time.<br /><br />I love you so so much darling, and please dont hesitate to contact me if you need to talk. I am always here for you and I will always have time for you. And I would be at a huge loss if you were to ever leave so please, please dont act on anything before talking to someone, contact Mary, or anyone if you need to, I dont want you to suffer alone.<br /><br />Lots of love, and please be safe xxxRayyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17119187530625796632noreply@blogger.com