tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post7924467058196406132..comments2024-03-06T14:38:23.226-08:00Comments on And then she recovered.......: Day 1: Operation FreedomRuby Tuesdayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comBlogger29125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-59656048975992398182013-05-27T03:54:59.744-07:002013-05-27T03:54:59.744-07:00True Danielle, I can always find a reason not to r...True Danielle, I can always find a reason not to recover<br />There's always an excuse<br />I think it's important to change now and not put it off until tomorrow xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-67505414018508905662013-05-26T16:57:10.779-07:002013-05-26T16:57:10.779-07:00The blood test thing makes complete sense. When I ...The blood test thing makes complete sense. When I was really ill I used to get annoyed that mine came back fine. I'd think I obviously wasn't that ill.<br /><br />Although the feelings of disappointment and guilt aren't nice, I see it as a good thing, it's huge progress. That you no longer see a positive in losing weight. It was a strange feeling when I realised I was disappointed when I saw my weight go down. Just shows your determination to get better. Another sign you're letting go of the eating disorder.<br /><br />Stay strong, take each day and challenge as it comes. There will always be 'reasons' not to move forward, but just think 'well why the hell not?'Daniellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09249674146339121847noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-39818023176642370042013-05-26T14:01:45.875-07:002013-05-26T14:01:45.875-07:00Thank you Kitty xThank you Kitty xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-21175145883895065912013-05-26T14:01:27.777-07:002013-05-26T14:01:27.777-07:00It is half the battle Emily
If it's not there ...It is half the battle Emily<br />If it's not there I can't eat it xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-54960311445031239462013-05-26T14:00:55.445-07:002013-05-26T14:00:55.445-07:00Today is Sunday and I'm afraid that today was ...Today is Sunday and I'm afraid that today was not so good<br />I'm trying not to be too disappointed though<br />A new start tomorrow and a new day<br />Operation Freedom is still my goal<br /><br />Thanks for your support, it means a lot xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-49709991093542254442013-05-26T13:58:41.312-07:002013-05-26T13:58:41.312-07:00Day 1 and 2 went well
Day 3, not so much
At least ...Day 1 and 2 went well<br />Day 3, not so much<br />At least tomorrow is Monday so a fresh start<br /><br />Love you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-34707058455034222772013-05-26T13:57:51.675-07:002013-05-26T13:57:51.675-07:00Thank you Anna, I think we all an operation freedo...Thank you Anna, I think we all an operation freedom xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-25208178698138713752013-05-26T12:53:18.849-07:002013-05-26T12:53:18.849-07:00Loving the name of your post Ruby :) Operation fre...Loving the name of your post Ruby :) Operation freedom! It really is what we need.. <br /><br />Taking hour by hour, one meal at the time sounds like a great idea. Gl with everything hon. <br /><br />Oh and nvm that doctor.. "Too lazy to eat" sounds sort of wtf... Some people just don't understand.. <br /><br /><3<br /><br />Kittyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15422328550710452031noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-62271967309251695332013-05-25T09:57:08.929-07:002013-05-25T09:57:08.929-07:00Good job on not buying binge food! It's half t...Good job on not buying binge food! It's half the battle. You sound so motivated so try to use it to your advantage. Do as much as you can for now and back off as you need to. <br />Mary seems amazing, and I hope you don't lose her. <br />Emily Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11825753991702537079noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-22974835689912410902013-05-25T07:53:16.242-07:002013-05-25T07:53:16.242-07:00Hi Ruby!
I love that you've come up with a na...Hi Ruby! <br />I love that you've come up with a name - Operation Freedom. It really does sound like you are on a mission, and seem incredibly determined! I can't say how proud I am of you!<br /><br />Sure, your eating disorder will try to mess up your recovery, time and time again, by distorting your thought and trying to drag you down, but I know you are strong enough and brave enough and courageous enough to let go of this monster. This monster is now trying to take Mary away from you, despite the fact that you need her and she is doing you the world of good. Say no to the monster and make Mary even more proud of you! You have the wand to create that magic lovely!<br /><br />One way to make Ensure more tolerable is to drink it ice cold, or freeze it (but keep stirring it every so often as it freezes) to make it more like ice cream. But then this might be triggering, so ignore me if it is!!<br /><br />You are so incredible Ruby! Can't wait to hear how positively you get on on Tuesday!<br /><br />Much love always xxxAngharad https://www.blogger.com/profile/03276065419684298280noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-17979581547314896732013-05-25T07:29:09.149-07:002013-05-25T07:29:09.149-07:00Hello sweetheart, you're on Day 2, how was Day...Hello sweetheart, you're on Day 2, how was Day 1 in the end?<br />I really hope you can keep seeing Mary and that your weight maintains for tuesday's session with her.<br /><br />Love you lots xxxxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-91906042085408828012013-05-25T01:42:31.370-07:002013-05-25T01:42:31.370-07:00Thanks Josie, better late then never I guess
Yes,...Thanks Josie, better late then never I guess<br /><br />Yes, that's a good idea, I just might try that<br />Thanks for the suggestion xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-90678420948834415452013-05-25T01:41:35.024-07:002013-05-25T01:41:35.024-07:00I'm coming around to the idea Peri
The scale w...I'm coming around to the idea Peri<br />The scale was up this morning and I didn't have a nervous breakdown so that is encouraging<br /><br />I feel good about this though<br />Having yesterday purge free was like heaven<br />No stealing food<br />No looking over my shoulder<br />No constant back and forth to the bathroom<br />It was great and I want more<br /><br />Love you to Peri, have a great weekend xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-55451084254424772372013-05-25T01:26:38.932-07:002013-05-25T01:26:38.932-07:00I am so happy to hear a fighting spirt in your blo...I am so happy to hear a fighting spirt in your blog. Just like NA it is all one day at a time, one moment at a time. Just a suggestion but since you like having a hot beverage like tea do you think you would like the ensure warmed? josie13https://www.blogger.com/profile/03988386743210558148noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-88647034073310638912013-05-25T01:14:57.993-07:002013-05-25T01:14:57.993-07:00You'll never see enough evidence to satisfy th...You'll never see enough evidence to satisfy the DisorderBrain.<br /><br />Lol, homeopatic Ensures. The most effective ones are the ones you don't drink! Do they taste ok? Would spreading shot-glasses of it out over an hour help? It would be easier to digest, anyway. Slip right through and start rebuilding your engine so you can brain better.<br /><br />Body dysmorphia comes in all kinds of variants. I know a bodybuilder who already looks like a fucking super-saiyan but wants to use steroids to get BIGGER. We can see the insanity EXCEPT when it's going on in our heads. I've seen two-week-dead sheep that look healthier than you do, but the disorder won't let you see it even if you weren't able to walk on you own. Put his picture near the mirror so you're reminded of Ed-Goggles?<br /><br />You CAN'T stay at this weight and get better. You need to regain organ mass as well as your major skeletal muscles. (I hope you haven't ever gotten to the point where your brain starts to shrink. While it's a wonderfully plastic thing, there is only so much of it you can lose)<br /><br />*Huggles* One bite at a time, ne? An ounce at a time. Enough so you don't keel over and die on the way, but not enough to rebound back into the arms of that abusive cadaver-bitch who wants you dead.<br /><br />I want you alive so I can whine at you for not talking to certain book-publishing people :p<br /><br />Brain is dying now. Love you so so so so so much Ruby. Take care of yourself as much as you can and have a good weekend <3Peridot (G+P)https://www.blogger.com/profile/07055351645100012755noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-80674090468337049632013-05-24T13:29:59.628-07:002013-05-24T13:29:59.628-07:00I quite like the vanilla too Bella
Bigorexia is t...I quite like the vanilla too Bella<br /><br />Bigorexia is the other extreme to anorexia I suppose<br />But yes it is crazy<br />But then some people would say we are crazy too<br /><br />Thanks sweetheart, love you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-54982385725350447662013-05-24T13:28:02.988-07:002013-05-24T13:28:02.988-07:00That's it Kate, it's definitely part of th...That's it Kate, it's definitely part of the illness<br />A very weird part<br /><br />I've been to IP 4 times already and I didn't really improve so I am reluctant to go back<br />I won't rule it out though xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-71766861179818345462013-05-24T13:26:40.883-07:002013-05-24T13:26:40.883-07:00Thank you Jeanne
Hopefully all these little steps ...Thank you Jeanne<br />Hopefully all these little steps will add up to be big chahges<br />And yes, treating it like an addiction is helping<br /><br />Love to you too xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-3456031473280660122013-05-24T13:25:15.349-07:002013-05-24T13:25:15.349-07:00Thanks you lovely xThanks you lovely xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-34210461932743955092013-05-24T13:25:02.385-07:002013-05-24T13:25:02.385-07:00Thanks Eve,
Yes I do need to stock up on healthy a...Thanks Eve,<br />Yes I do need to stock up on healthy and filling foods<br />Binge food is banned<br />And it's such a relief to not binge and purge<br />I guess I can do it when I set my mind on it xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-32760453281147225812013-05-24T13:23:39.716-07:002013-05-24T13:23:39.716-07:00I think I can do it xI think I can do it xRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15078080281794429051noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-10437470740750437412013-05-24T12:11:27.567-07:002013-05-24T12:11:27.567-07:00I love this! Operation Freedom sounds fantastic. E...I love this! Operation Freedom sounds fantastic. Eating breakfast was a huge step, I really hope the rest of the day goes as well. <br /><br />I love the taste of vanilla Ensure, though a lot of people don't. It's much cheaper to buy in the big tubs of powder and mix it up yourself, if it's available in Ireland. I know it can be hard to drink them, but try to think of it as medicine, for all parts of your body. <br /><br />I know someone with 'bigorexia'. He's a psychiatric nurse, but he's as obsessed with diet/exercise/body shape as a lot of people with EDs. He wants to look like that picture you posted, it's crazy. <br /><br />Love you dearest Ruby. Keep the mantra "One day at a time, one meal at a time, one moment at a time". It helps me a lot <3 xxBellahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07544398450025713725noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-74900536772399694122013-05-24T12:10:48.353-07:002013-05-24T12:10:48.353-07:00hey,
I completely empathise with the example you...hey, <br /><br />I completely empathise with the example you give with your blood results. I feel the same. I want my blood pressure on the floor with my white cell count, I want my heart to be dicky, I want people to see the illness that's in my head. When you feel like your hearts been ripped out and replaced with nothing you want some evidence of your suffering.<br /><br />big congratulations on your self control; the further away you move from reacting to urges the lesser they will get. Not overnight but it will happen.<br /><br />IP isnt a magic cure, but sometimes you just get exhausted with trying to fathom it alone and need someone else to take control.<br /><br />By getting the ensures you've shown a desire to improve, you should be proud.<br /><br />my blog is http://katiejess.blogspot.co.uk/, please follow guys xxxxxxAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13151849011637071775noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-91186642199186357342013-05-24T11:34:09.285-07:002013-05-24T11:34:09.285-07:00Just the fact that you went out and bought those b...Just the fact that you went out and bought those bottles of Ensure, that you have them in your house and that you've started on one says something about your desire to get better. Well done, Ruby, I'm proud of you! Even if you only have one shake a week, it's a start. Just take it slow, like you have been and go easy on yourself. I approve of your taking it one meal at a time, it's a very healthy way to go!<br /><br />I'll be keeping fingers crossed for you with the purging, I know it's hard. Just do your best to cut it down a little every day like any addiction. I'm rooting for you, Ruby-girl! Hang in there.<br /><br />Sending you all my love. :)Jéannehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02603508805500865328noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6562281218287648674.post-2079649656383956912013-05-24T09:56:11.544-07:002013-05-24T09:56:11.544-07:00<3 love that title, operation freedom.<3 love that title, operation freedom. PrettyLieshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14074616303471229792noreply@blogger.com