Hey everyone, longtime no blog!!!
Today is the first day that I've checked my blog since coming in to treatment
I'm here five weeks today
Where does the time go?
I'm using my room mates iPad so this will be a very quick update
Treatment is every bit as hard as I thought it would be
I am on bed rest at the moment as I haven't been meeting my weight targets
The good news is I am here and fighting hard
My food intake has increased and the purging has decreased
The bad news is that I haven't had a purge free day since arriving here
Allowing myself to gain weight is proving very difficult
In fact my weight is lower now than it was when I arrived
The other bad news is that if I don't gain weight by next Wednesday i will be discharged
But i will do everything in my power not to let that happen
This all sounds very negative but there have been a lot of positives too
Being here away from home has shown me just how crazy my life was before I came in
I was spending all my days every day binging and purging
Sometimes up to twenty times a day
Now my purging has decreased to two to three times a day
Still not ideal but a vast improvement
Before I came in here i was incredibly isolated
Now I am on a ward with many others
At first I really struggled and spent a lot of time in my room
But now I am growing in confidence every day
My personality that had been so stifled by my Ed is now starting to emerge
Despite my struggles I am hopeful
Bit by bit I am starting to believe that there is a life beyond this cruel illness
I will update again soon
I hope you are all doing well
Thank you so much for the cards, gifts, emails and texts
They mean more than you know
Until the next time
Take care
Stay strong
And above all else keep fighting
Your friend,
Ruby x
