Back? Maybe?

I miss you guys

I miss writing 

I'm on a Facebook group about horses and people seem genuinely interested in mine and Cocos story

So am thinking I might continue our story on this blog

And then she got a pony!

Anyone out there interested in reading about us

Do let me know

I notice my statistics are still quite high

So I would love to know if you are interested because I know I would love to continue writing

Yay or nay people?

5 Years on...

Next month

I celebrate 5 years blogging

It's hard to believe 

So much has happened in those years 

And every bit of it documented 

It's been an emotional roller coaster 

So many ups and downs

Highs and lows 

Recovery and relapse

In to treatment 

Trying to recover from home 

Addiction issues 

Holidays 

Courses 

Relationships 

My dogs

Coco 

And my life now 

Where I am quite happy and content 

I hate to write this 

And part of me is really fighting this 

But I think my blog is coming to a natural end 

For many reasons

Blogger seems very dead

There is no buzz about it the way there used to be

 I'm now using Facebook more 

And my own Facebook page 

I don't use blogger half as much as I used to

So I think it's time to slip away quietly 

Of course this is not goodbye

I will still keep in touch with you all

That is not chsnging

But I will no longer be updating here 

Life is shooting forward at light speed 

And I can barely keep up

A lot of times I don't have the time to sit down and write a lengthy post

Things with my ED have also moved on

I don't restrict 

Purging is a rarity

I don't weigh myself 

I don't deny myself food 

My ED I'd gradually becoming part of my past 

Not my present 

So I just wanted to take this opportunity 

To thank you all

For your comments 

Your kindness

Your thoughtful words

Your patience 

Thank you for being there 

For reading 

For listening 

For gently guiding me 

For never giving up on me 

For believing in me 

Thank you for becoming part of my story 

For loving  me even though I hated myself 

Thank you for your advice 

Your wise words and sage suggestions 

For being a good friend 

For telling me what I needed to hear rather than what I wanted to hear 

Thank you for taking my story in to your hearts 

For sending me love from the four corners of the world 

Thank you for letting me cry 

For making me laugh

For allowing me to be myself 

For accepting me

For being the voice of reason

Thank you for reminding me that I am unique 

That I am lovable 

And that I am not a bad person

Thank you for never giving up on me 

For providing a safe place for me to fall

For forming a supportive community of ED sufferers 

You girls saved my life and my sanity over and over again

Thank you 

I love you 

I will never forget you

If you want to stay in touch 

Please email me 

Andthenshedisappeared@yahoo.ie

We can Facebook or whatever suits you

Xxxxxx

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Still here...

Yes

I am still here 

I know 

I'm not terribly active here on blogger anymore

But I do like to check in once in a while

So 

I've had a busy week to say the least

Mary had asked me to do some media interviews as part of EDAW

So I did two radio interviews

And two newspaper interviews

I have to tell you

It was a scary business

But I think they went well

I really did my best 

And I wanted to do for all ED sufferers out there

And for you 

Monday I did Ocean FM

Which was live in the studio

At one point I went completely blank 

Couldn't remember what I was doing

Or saying 

 Couldn't even remember my own name 

But I think I managed to pick it up again without too much dead air

The interviewer was lovely 

And Mary and my Mam  were there

I couldn't ask for better support

It lasted about 15 minutes 

And I did my best to get everything in to the interview 

Of course when it was over 

I thought of all the things I could have said 

But look

It's done now 

After the interview on Monday 

We picked up the newspaper I featured in

I went in to the shop

And there I was on the front page

I nearly died

And immediately became super self conscious 

Theng there was a big photo of myself and Mary on page 11

Oh my God it was a very strange experience seeing myself in print

Then on Tuesday 

I had an interview on Shannonside FM

Which was over the phone

Again I was very nervous 

At one point I mentioned my blog 

And the interviewer asked me for the name of it

I didn't know what to say 

So I said I would tell him after the interview 

He didn't push the issue after that 

I was so relieved to have all the interviews over with 

I probably will never know if I helped anyone 

I know in the days following 

Two girls presented to Mary having heard my interviews

That in itself is amazing!

To know I made a difference 

And my story mattered

On Wednesday 

I went horse riding 

And we had the final day of our course 

So they did a little graduation ceremony 

And we got certs and ribbons

So lovely 

I am thoroughly enjoying horse riding again 

I wish I could do more of it

I know now that I made the right decision leaving my course 

I have no doubt about that 

In other news 

You might have seen that I made a Facebook page for me, my dogs and Coco

Being a bit of a technophobe 

I am still trying to navigate my way through it 

I don't know how to share the link here 

So if someone could let me know 

I would be hella grateful

But yes 

My relationship with Coco continues to blossom

I love that little pony so much 

He brings so much happiness to my life 

Bit by bit 

He has relaxed around me 

And is letting his personality shine 

He is such a character 

A cheeky monkey 

One of his favourite things to go is pull my hat off my head 

And play with it in his mouth

He also likes to run around like a complete lunatic 

He drinks tea 

He rolls around 

We play chase 

And generally have a lot of fun

I am now taking charge of feeding him

And more interest I show in him

The more his owner stands back 

So I'm not really sure what is happening 

But I'm too attached now to walk away

In other news

I booked a day photographer to come and take photos of me and the dogs and Coco

We are going to do it in the field 

It costs €90 everything included

So I think that's pretty good going 

Can't wait to share them with you 

Anyway

That's all from me today 

Hope you are all doing ok

And if someone could please tell me how to share the link to my page 

I will love you forever....