I thought I was ok
I really did
I actually believed that I had a chance
That things were turning around
But now I think it was just lies
It was anorexia trying to lull me in to a false sense of security
She is so cunning
So sly
And I fall for it every time
My dear Ruby, please don't be discouraged. Life is full of us and downs and you can't have the sunshine without a little rain so to speak. Don't give up. Don't count it as a lost but as a snag. I love you.
ReplyDeleteHave you been duped? Is it true "duping" if you see it now and can change it? Keep going to meetings, keep talking, keep blogging, keep reminding yourself of why you want to be free. You may have had a momentary lapse in concentration but it ain't over til the fat lady sings and I'm not singing! You can do this Ruby! You really can xx.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for being so shabby at commenting lately. I just wanted you to know that I'm still here, still reading all your posts and still keeping you in my prayers. I hate your eating disorder. I wish my hatred of it could take it away from you. Please don't give up. You've realised this blip, this shows your strength to be able to see through anorexia, sly as it is. As long as you believe that you can recover, then there is a chance, and especially so for you, Ruby, who is so precious to so many. We are all rooting for you, I hope you find strength from this fact. Here for you always, and sending love and hugs xxx
ReplyDeleteYou are strong Ruby don't forget that.
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