Saturday 7 February 2015

On a good day.....

On a good day
I wake up refreshed from a good nights sleep
I wake early naturally
On a bad day
I fight the morning
I crave just a few more hours sleep 

On a good day
I feel ok about getting up
And can do so without too much hassle 
On a bad day I dread the day ahead
And would much rather sleep the day away

On a good day I put on the radio
And sing along to pop music that I am much too old to be listening to
I don't mind telling you that Taylor Swift is my guilty pleasure
On a bad day 
I turn in the radio to drown out my thoughts
To stop the noise and negativity in my head
To muffle my thinking

On a good day
I have a shower
And wear fresh clean clothes
On a really good day
I might even straighten my hair
And apply a little bit of make up
On a bad day
I don't even wash
My teeth don't get brushed
And I tie my hair up in a messy pony tail
On a bad day
My personal hygiene definitely suffers

On a good day 
I choose my clothes according to how I feel
And make sure I look half way presentable
On a bad day
I throw on whatever
And can't bring myself to look in the mirror

On a good day
I have no urge to weigh myself
And avoid the scale at all costs
On a bad day
I torture myself
And let the number dictate my mood for the whole day

On a good day
I pile Lea and Honey in to the car
And head to beach for a long walk
On a bad day
I still pile the dogs in to the car
And I still walk the beach 
But I don't enjoy it at all

On a good day
I will plan my meals
And go shopping for the food
On a bad day
I go to the supermarket
And buy lots of binge food

On a good day
I will get through the day
Having purged a couple of times
On a bad day
It is relentless

On a good day
I will take my meds properly
On a bad day
I will take them all

On a good day 
I will go swimming
On a bad day
I won't leave the couch
Never mind the house 

On a good day
I might go for coffee with a friend
I might see a couple of friends
On a bad day
I see no one 

On a good day
I almost pass as a normal person
On a bad day
I don't even know what normal means

On a good day
I feel alive
On a bad day
I feel nothing

On a good day
I am chatty
I laugh
On a bad day 
I withdraw and isolate

On a good day
I feel like I can take on the world 
On a bad day
I want the world to swallow me up

On a good day
I feel hopeful and positive
On a bad day
I feel nothing but fear and anxiety

Today is not a good day
Not at all
But I live in hope that tomorrow will be better

8 comments:

  1. And still you made my day less bad cause I got to txt with you....

    Plase hang in there sweetie... It's just one day, 24 hours and you're almost halfway through...

    (L)

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    1. Always love to hear from my A team
      Always
      And yes it's just 24 hours
      Tomorrow is a new day

      Thank you x

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  2. Tomorrow can, and will, be better... or at least that's what I choose to believe.

    <3

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  3. can't say anything helpful just sending big hug xx jo

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  4. Aw, well as long as you still have that little bit of hope, you're good. So sorry today was bad. Hope tomorrow's better.
    Xxoo

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  5. Well, tomorrow IS another day. Good days will come.

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  6. A new day has come....

    (L) from the A team

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