Busy bee!

It's 2pm on a Saturday

I have just finished the morning shift at work

I worked yesterday's evening shift

And tomorrow I'm on all day

It's busy at work at the moment 

We have 53 guests staying 

Most of whom are children under 12

So the place needs a thorough and rigorous clean after each meal time 

The group that are staying with us this week are what we call travellers 

You may know them as gypsies 

Travellers in this country generally live in caravans 

On the road from place to place 

To be honest 

They have a bad name in this country 

But like any group of people 

It's a few bad eggs that ruin it for everyone 

So I was a bit worried how this week would go 

As you often hear of fights breaking out at traveller events like weddings and funerals

But I have to say 

The people are just lovely 

A pleasure to have staying with us 

The parents are great

The children are polite 

And they do their bit to help us stack the dirty dishes 

And throw left overs away 

Coming here is these peoples one and only holiday a year 

So I really try to make their experience a good one 

I try to be friendly and chatty 

TAlk to the kids 

And generally make them feel very welcome 

One family brought a dog with them 

But they aren't allowed bring it to their room 

So the dog is staying in the car 

However 

I did see the man sneaking in something under his jacket this morning 

Ha!

I turned a blind eye 

I would not like to have the poor dog cooped up in the car for days

In general 

I think work is going well

It's busy 

It's hard work 

But I feel like I am thriving 

I can feel my confidence growing every day 

Even just talking to people 

So many different people every day 

Helps my self esteem 

And how sure I am of myself 

I can remember just a month ago 

Before I started

I was so nervous 

Afraid I wouldn't be able to do the job 

And that it wouldn't work out 

Now 

Here I am 

Four weeks later 

And I know what I am doing 

I feel confident and sure about my work 

And meeting new people 

Who are now friends is amazing 

Myself and Sinead are in constant contact 

I really think we are going to be good friends 

Even though she is almost half my age 

We get on like a house on fire

And the rest of the staff are just lovely 

So willing to help 

And to explain anything that needs sorting 

My Mam keeps telling me that I am lucky to have found this job

She is not wrong 

It's perfect for easing me back in to work 

I'm so busy that the time flies by 

I eat my breakfast and lunch in work 

Which is a revelation in itself 

I'm loving being more independent 

Being my own person 

And also being more financially flush 

I can contribute more to the house and bills 

I can treat the dogs 

And myself

Yes

It has all worked out remarkably well

I feel like I am somewhat abandoning my blog lately 

I just don't have time most days to blog 

And often don't have anything to blog about other than work 

I guess I am blogging 2-3 times a week now 

As opposed to the 7 days a week I used to write 

I'm also aware that my blog is becoming less and less about my ED and addiction

And more about life matter them

That is great 

And I'm loving where I am now in my life 

But I feel I might be losing readers 

But also 

I feel like I am pulling away from blogs that may trigger me 

And now I guess I don't have as much in common anymore with certain blogs

I can clearly remember writing here once 

That it was a sad fact that my virtual life was more active than my real life 

Well that has most definitely changed 

Now I am out and about in the big bad world 

Meeting people 

Trying new things 

Working 

Living 

And loving it!

As I always say 

It's baby steps 

As baby steps soon add up to be geat strides 

So yes 

I am in a good place 

How wonderful it is to be able to say that 

Things just seem to be falling in to place for me 

At long last 

I turn 35 this year 

And I feel like I am just starting to figure life out 

Heck, I am still pretty clueless 

But it's fun trying things out 

And finding out what works 

I know that a lot of you are struggling out there 

I am aware that some people are hanging on by their finger tips 

I just want you to know 

That recovery is possible 

That there is life after ED and addiction m

The odds were stacked against me 

I was a heroin addict 

With a chronic eating disorder 

It took me a while 

But I've made it out the other side 

And am now living my life without these illness taking over 

I can't lie 

It's not easy 

I still struggle 

Still purge from time to time 

Undereat from time to time 

But the point is 

That I don't let these things pull me down 

It's about progress 

Not perfection 

Perfection is a myth 

And we need to give ourselves a break 

And feel good about all the positive changes we have made 

So please 

Whatever you do 

Don't give up 

Right 

I'm off for a cuppa 

See you on the next post...