Post party....

My God

It's been a crazy few days 

It's only now that I am getting the chance to post

And make sense of it all

On Thursday night 

We had our staff party

We met up at a bout 7pm in a local pub

Where we had a couple of drinks 

Yes

You read correctly 

I did have a drink

I know I probably shouldn't have 

But look 

It's done now 

I can't go back and change it 

So 

Then we headed to bingo

We went to bingo

Because the two housekeepers are leaving after this season

So we wanted to do something that they would enjoy 

I have to say 

It was great craic

Myself and Mary spent most of our time running up and down to the bar

I was on vodka and orange juice 

And people kept buying me doubles 

So as you can imagine 

I was well on it by the time we were finished the bingo

It was great though 

One of the ladies won €40

And one of the house keepers won €100

So we were delighted for them 

Some of the ladies left straight after the bingo

So there was just four of us left

and we headed on to a pub where a band was a playing 

Of course the alcohol was flowing freely 

I can only remember bits and pieces 

But it was great fun

And I was with good friends 

You know I wrote a few times about a crush that I had 

Well it was one of the chefs 

Who didn't come out with us that night 

His brother is also a chef 

And did come out with us 

At one stage 

One of the girls pulled me in to the loo

And broke it to me that my crush likes one of the other girls 

A very young 

Very tiny 

19 year old 

I have to admit 

I didn't not see that one coming

But thinking about it now 

I can see that my crush is more a good friendship more than anything else 

And maybe that is better 

I'm not heart broken or anything like it 

But it seems that the guys I like never like me back 

Why people?

Why?

Besides that 

We had a great night 

We danced 

We chatted 

We sang 

We took photos 

One of the girls even took a video of us dancing 

God forgive me 

If that ends up in a social media site 

I will go ape shit 

After the pub 

We walked up to the town

But I swear to God 

I don't remember a thing from that time until the time I got home

Not An iota 

Apparently we went to a night club

No memory of that 

We went for food 

No memory of that 

We walked one of the girls home 

Then I had to ring my mam for a lift 

As the taxis don't run at that hour of the morning 

I. Got home at 6am

What the hell I was doing until 6am 

I do not know 

At one stage during the night 

The chef asked me if I liked the other chef 

I have no clue what I said to him

But I'm hoping I didn't say anything about my supposed crush

I do however remember telling him about my drug history 

He was shocked to say the least

But I get like that when I have a few drinks taken 

My tongue becomes very loose altogether 

But hey 

I harmed so one 

Yesterday morning 

I got up at 11am

And my God I had the mother of all hangovers 

I haven't drank like that in years

Literally years 

I surprised I didn't pass out or get sick 

I got up 

Had a cuppa 

I couldn't face food 

And in fact I still couldn't face it today 

So I haven't eaten since Thursday 

Which is not good I know 

But I will have something this evening 

I then brought the dogs for a wAlk

Which cleared my head to a certain extent 

I came home And dozed on the couch 

Before I headed to work for 4pm

Sweet Jesus I was dying on my feet

And in fact I had to work an extra hour 

So that made the shift even longer

I got home last night 

And went straight to bed

Where I conked out like a light 

Then I had to be up today 

To be in work for 8am

It was not easy getting up this morning 

And I had another long day

Until 4pm

But in fairness 

The day went pretty quickly 

As we were so busy 

So I didn't have time to mull over things 

It was great fun today though

As we all tried to put the pieces of the night together 

There were some really funny momenus 

And the photos that we took are hilarious 

I really can't share them though 

As my others co workers are in all of them 

But I did post a couple of photos of what I wore at the end of this post

But yes

In all honesty 

I really should not be drinking 

Because I'm on a lot of Meds 

Because I have a history of addiction

Because I know I am a disaster area when I'm drunk 

But 

As we said today 

We harmed no one 

We got drunk 

Any harm was done to ourselves 

I won't be drinking like that again 

It was a once off

Not to be repeated 

When my mam and my auntie came to pick me up 

They meet some of my work friends

It was so funny 

Because we were all so drunk 

But it was harmless fun 

Today I feel a bit better 

I'm more tired than anything 

I'm in work again tomorrow at 12pm

So at least I have a lie in tomorrow morning 

Then I have a few days off

A chance to catch up on sleep 

And lick my wounds regarding the chef 

Work is finishing up for me in a couple of weeks 

It's going to be very strange to have no job 

I'll miss it 

The structure 

The routine 

The money 

But mostly the friends I have made

There are some really good and sound people working there 

Georgina picks her employees well

She seems to be able to read people quickly and accurately 

I really have made friends for life 

I've had jobs in the paSt 

Where I dreaded going in to work 

But not this job

The holiday centre is a very special place 

And both staff and guests are a pleasure to work for 

I can remember Georgina saying to me at the start of the summer 

That I would flourish in this job 

And you know what?

She was dead right 

I have come on leaps and bounds in the last few months 

My confidence 

My self esteem 

My whole demeanour and outlook has chAnged 

And I Am so grateful to Georgina for giving me a chance 

Because that's all I needed

For someone to give me a chance 

And now I know I will be kept in mind if anything else comes up work wise 

I will keep in touch with Georgina anyway 

And we'll see what happens 

Again 

Apologies for being a bad blogger 

For not being as committed as I used to be

And my reading and commenting has left a lot to be desired 

But look

I'm not blogging because I'm out there 

Living my life 

Working hard 

Playing hard

And generally being on the go the whole time 

But that's good

It great 

I now have a life 

I have a job 

Friends 

My horizons are expanding 

And my issues with food are very much in the background 

Which is nothing short of amazing 

Don't get me wrong 

Things are far from perfect 

But they are a hell of a lot better than they were 

I'm trying my best 

And look

I know I shouldn't have drank last night 

But I did 

And I will know for again not to have even one drink

Because as soon as I get a taste for it 

I can't stop myself 

Anyway 

I will leave it at that for today 

I am super tired 

So just going to flake out on the couch 

With a cuppa 

And watch The X Factor

What did I say earlier about having a life......?