That over the last few months
I haven't been the best blogger
Or the best reader or commenter
I guess I kind of feel like I'm not relevant anymore
That maybe my blog has done its piece
And maybe I should think about retiring
I don't want to
I want to write
But I am just not getting much feedback these days
So I don't know if people are reading
If my blog is still helping people
And even if it's good for me
Don't get me wrong
I love you all dearly
But I am starting to wonder if my blog has run its course
And maybe it's time to say goodbye
For now at least
I started writing this blog back in 2012
And have faithfully documented every step of my life since then
I have met the most amazingly kind and wonderful people
Who I will stay in touch with whether I continue to write or not
I heavily relied on my blog when I was unwell
I was so isolated and trapped in my illness
I didn't have friends
I was so very lonely
And relied on my blog for support
For friendship
For a break from the relentlessness of my condition
Blogger and all the girls in it
We're there for me over the years when I couldn't bear to leave the house or face the world
But over the last six months
My situation has improved greatly
I made friends
I held down a job
I regained weight to a healthy BMI
And generally improved in all areas
Now that my real life is flourishing
I don't need my blog as much now
I don't have the time
As I am out living my life
So I guess that is a good thing
Anyway
This is a shout out to you
If you are reading
If you are still following me
Let me know t
Let me know that you are there
That I am still relevant
And please
Be honest
I'm a big girl
I can take it
I just need to know that I am still part of this community
And that our community is still thriving
This is an invitation to you
To comment
To text
To email
Let me know that you are there
That my story still needs to be told
Show me you are there.......
Hi Ruby, I understand where you're coming from. I definitely much less then I used to but I'll always write no matter what. I find the feedback has slowed down from a couple of years ago ... I get that people move on, it's life.
ReplyDeleteI think you should keep your blog and write when you feel like it. There will be days you want to document and I'm sure your story here can/wool help others. Ultimately it's your decision xox ♡◇
Hi Launna
DeleteGood to hear from you
And thanks for your thoughts
I guess my blog is evolving
Along with my life
And I need to find a new place
I mean I rarely write about my conditions anymore
And I think that's a good thing
Don't worry though
I'm not stopping just yet
Hope you are well Launna x
I'm still here, faithfully reading your blog, staring in awe, agog at the screen at your amazing achievements. You make me believe that recovery is possible. You make me believe that there is a life out there.
ReplyDeleteBut I know where you're coming from. I have literally just had a chat with two staff here who don't think it's good me keeping my blog and they want me to stop writing which is breaking my heart. I don't want to stop, so now I don't know what to do, like you...
xoxo
p.s. sorry for not being much help
Aw thanks partner
DeleteI know you are there
And I am so grateful to have you as a friend
I feel the exact same about you
You blow me away with how far you have come
And how strong you have become
You are an inspiration to me!
One hundred per cent!!
The thing is
I can see both sides of the argument for blogging
As it can be both a negative air positive thing
Depending on what circles you move in
The blogs you follow
And what you read
It's just like life really
The triggers are always there
We just need to learn to avoid them or deal with them
Ultimately it's your blog
Can I ask why your staff members are opposed to it?
Hope you see this
As I haven't been replying to comments recently
Xxxxxx
We just have to keep going don't we, no matter what life throws at us, and I think we are both living proof of that, we can keep going, we are strong young women.
DeleteYou're right, we need to learn to avoid triggers, and I think I'm pretty good at that, in the blogging world anyway. I have nothing to do with pro ana/pro mia blogs etc.
I really don't want to stop blogging, but I don't want to go against what the professionals think either. My blog is my baby, proof of my achievements, my mistakes, reminders of how I can move forward when I put my mind to it, reminders of how far I have come, and a way of helping others, reaching out to those who are in the same/similar boat. I feel a part of something, I feel worth something on my blog.
Staff think that my blog is maintaining my situation/preventing me from moving forward. I wasn't confident enough to be able to tell them I don't agree. What do you think?
xxxxxxx
I'm still here. :) Just haven't had much oomph to say anything lately...in blogs or comments. I've read your blog for much longer than I've been commenting and have always found courage and hope in what you write, even on your tough days.
ReplyDeleteHey SW
DeleteThanks for your comment
I guess you make a good point
A lot of people read and don't comment
And that's ok
I know some people may feel uncomfortable doing so
How are you doing? X
hi ruby don't know if it will go through try comment but it won't work, alw`ys read and so pleased at your story x jo
DeleteHi Jo
DeleteThanks love
I know you are there
You are amazing x
I'm ....okay? I think? lol I have a lot of thoughts rolling around in my head that I'm hoping to blog about soon. :)
DeleteI'm here! Still reading! My blog has been super quiet lately too. XOXO
ReplyDeleteThanks Kate
DeleteI appreciate it
I hope you and your beautiful little girl are keeping well x
You will always be relevant to me and I've followed you from the start. You are an inspiration to me, and have shown that recovery IS possible, after years of illness and addiction. Do what's right for you, and don't worry about what others think <3 xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you Agnes
DeleteFor your kind words
They mean a lot
And yes
I think I need to do what's right for me
I want to to keep blogging
I would miss all of you way too much x
Luv I think this is like the 3rd time you've posted this. :P
ReplyDeleteIt seems like your tendency to second guess your own worth also extends to your blog--when blogger goes quiet, you feel like there's no point in blogging. And like I've told you before, you should be blogging first and foremost for YOU. If you like writing and blogging, keep doing it, and who cares how many people read it. Those of us who've been there from the beginning will still be here.
Maybe what you need is a change? Like a new look or theme, and a change of direction, like posting about your life in general or subjects and issues that interest you rather than focusing on ED and recovery subject matter. A lot of us have done that over the years. My blog started as a diary of my starvation, then a diary of my recovery, and now it's just a hot mess of whatever I feel like blathering on about. (And honestly most of the time I'm amazed anyone reads it at all....)
I personally would hate to see you go. <3
I know Mich
DeleteIt just keeps coming up for me
But to be honest
I want to write
No matter how many people read or don't read
I love the connections I have made here
I guess sometimes I feel like I am shouting in to the abyss that is the internet
And I don't know if anyone hears me
But
I know
I've written about this a few times
I just need to vent you know?
And don't worry
I'm not going any where just yet x
Good. :) Maybe consider the change of scenery? Since I started, now I can't stop. That's why I revamp everything for each season.
DeleteI never followed your blog because you had an eating disorder. So I'm not going to stop now just because you blog about that less. I think you need to give yourself more credit for being a likeable person and for being somebody worth knowing outside the box of ED.
ReplyDeleteYou shouldn't force yourself to blog if it's not worth it to you anymore. But there's no rule that you have to blog at a certain frequency, and there's no rule that you have to blog about a certain topic and not others.
Thanks EM
DeleteThat's really sweet of you to say
I guess I am just finding out who I am without my ED and addictions
I think my blog needs to evolve as my life has
Thank you x
Still here Ruby!
ReplyDeleteBut there's no good in being a feedback addict.....Sometimes it's just a quiet time. In my case it's spring so it's a busy time and more outdoorsy, you know?
Anyway aren't you partly writing this for yourself as a journaling exercise?!
Shelby xoxo
Hi Shelby
DeleteI know
And it is quiet
But it seems it's quiet for a lot of people
Not just me
I guess that's just the way it goes sometimes
And yes
I am writing for myself primarily
Hope you are well x
Always here for you, even if it's just the occasional update. Sorry, you can't get rid of me that easily ;)
ReplyDeletexxxx
Oh my, this is so belated...but I always catch up on loved ones!
ReplyDeleteIt's sad to see bloggers go (I guess I might be one of those) but I always check from time to time to see how everyone is doing.
I could never leave this place entirely -the writing, it's a part of me, and there's too many kind people such as yourself that were there through so much, I could never forget about you all!
Much love
xx
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