I'm home
Praise the Lord I am home
I was discharged yesterday at lunch time
My doctor came in the early morning
And told me that my bloods were almost back to normal
And I would be discharged that day
It was welcome news
Hospital life is fine for a while
But there's no place like home
All things were pointing to my being discharged
I was allowed to eat a low fat diet
I was taken off the drip
I had no pain
And was generally feeling a lot better
And of course
Hospitals don't tend to keep you one minute more than necessary
So
I packed up my little bag
Got dressed for the first time in almost a week
And made sure to have a little chat with all the ladies before I went
They were especially nice on my ward
Ladies in for all kind of things from kidney stones to bladder problems
We all bonded over cups of tea
And really looked out for each other
I wished them all luck
Then went to the day room to wait to be formally discharged
I was barely out of my bed before it was filled
In fact there was a girl in the day room waiting for my bed
They don't mess around in hospitals do they?
My Dad arrived to pick me up
And we continued to wait to speak with doctor and get my prescription
Even though I was feeling better
I still wasn't back to myself
And was incredibly tired
I had to fight sleep sitting with my dad
Eventually the doctor came
And spoke to both of us
He explained that they thought the pancreatitis was as a result of being on my meds for so long
Exacerbated by my ED
And to stay well I needed to watch my diet
Take it easy
And maybe try and come off some of the meds
We thanked the doctor
And made our way home
There was a flurry of activity when I arrived home
The two workmen who did our kitchen were there
And they gave me a racous welcome home
And of course Honey and Lea went beserk
I've havent seen Honey move so fast since she was a puppy
There were so many people in the house
They didn't know who to go to first
After sitting with them for a while
I went and unpacked my bag
And changed in to my pjs
And retreated to the couch with a cozy blanket
Where I promptly fell asleep for the evening
The rents thought that when I woke up was a good time to tackle me about my lifestyle
I make no secret of the fact that I lead a very unhealthy life style
My food is nothing short of atrocious
I purge
I don't get enough vitamins and minerals
More often than not I am dehydrated
And basically I am like a grown up child
I eat what I want
When I want
And don't take my health in to consideration one jot
Heck, I only gave up smoking because of the inflated price of them
Not because of my health
I guess when you don't like yourself very much
You don't really care about the health of your body
You don't care if you live or die
It makes no difference to me
But I really need to start taking proper care of myself
No more crisps
No more chocolate
No more eating what I want
And definitely no purging
Which is going to be the toughest part I just know it
I've also decided to stop weighing
My scale is not that reliable
But weighing yourself everyday
And recording it
Can not be healthy right?
Anyway
I don't need a scale to tell me I've lost weight
I just need to look in the mirror to see that
Anyway
I'll just take it day by day
I had no appointment with my doctor this morning
But I rocked up and 9am anyway
And he saw me pretty quickly which I was grateful for
I got my prescription
And headed to the chemist
Where I am as I type this
This week has been a bit of an eye opener
Change has to happen if I want to live
And I do
I really do
As I always say
Baby steps all the way