Another instalment of -
Ruby F**ks up!!
Last episode we saw Ruby over taking her medication
Having to tell her doctor
Her meds being increased
Said meds making her drowsy
Making her feel like she might as well be misusing them
Here what's on today's episode
Today
As Ruby walks her dogs
She suddenly has a huge urge to know her weight
She gets home
Takes said scales out of the bag she's left in the 'messy room'
Said scales had not been working of late
And it suddenly occurs to her why
The battery is not in correctly
So in a brainwave worthy of Mcguyver
She takes a teeny tiny piece of tin foil
And places it in said battery compartmen
She turns the scale over
And lo and be hold it works!
She takes the scales in to get room
Places it where she always places it
And before she could talk herself out of it
She strips
And stands on it
She registers the number
Where does it fall on the safe - unsafe number range
Hmmmm
It's verging on unsafe
That's not good
That won't do at all
In her mind
She immediately decides to go an a 'diet'
Not a relapse people
A d-I-e-t
Just a few pounds
Just enough to get back to my safe place
It'll be fine
It'll all be fine
Famous last words
So yes
Ruby so enthusiastically started off her year without a scale three weeks ago
And now in a moment of weakness
She has managed to mess that up
So that's today's episode
Tune in next week
To see what delights Ruby has in store.....
Try and keep it healthy though. You don't want to go back to dreadful place (both metaphorically and physically).
ReplyDeleteSera :) xx
I'll try Sera
DeleteIt's just seems to be all or nothing with me
But you're right
I don't want to go back to that place x
It's black and white thinking. But not everything is completely wrong or completely right. There is a spectrum (it's silly coming from me)... but try to hold on as strong as you can :) If anyone can do it, it's you :)
DeleteSera :) xxx
Sometimes I forget that there is a whole Grey area Sera
DeleteIt is a spectrum I guess
And I know beating myself up about it won't help
Thank you x
You didn't 'fuck up' you slipped up you can always try again tomorrow rubs! And boy wow did 3 weeks go fast!
ReplyDeleteThis is true
DeleteJust a bit annoyed with myself
I think it was three weeks
Two and a half anyway x
It's fair to be annoyed. But it's in Your control weather you let it get the better of you. Now is the time to pick yourself back up. One mistake doesn't necessarily send you on a different path ❤️
DeleteDo you know how many people do something perfectly on the first try?
ReplyDeleteNo one.
(Except maybe Mozart or Nikola Tesla. But none of us is Mozart or Nikola Tesla. So yeah, no one.)
Try again. Get the scale out of the house and into a dumpster. It is a lead weight strapped to your ankle, and its numbers will make you want to go on a "diet" simply because you can see them.
You did three weeks on your first try. Now start again, and see if you can do four. And if you do four, see if you can do five. And so on.
<3
This is exactly why I blog
DeleteBecause you gals all always full of sound advice
I swear I have more interaction with you all than I have with real life friends
If I was giving a friend advice that was in my position
I would give then this exact advice
So thank you Mich
For being there when all common sense leaves me x
Three weeks without a scale is amazing!! Don't forget that's a success. Just this morning I was thinking of putting my scale in a closet, where it's less accessible.
ReplyDeleteYour beauty, your worth, your success....none of that is even related to that number you see. You are not a number! You weighed today. So what? Put the scale away again and start over tomorrow and shoot for another chunk of time scale-free.
Thank you SW
DeleteI will try again
I'm too stubborn to give up x
Oh Ruby dear, you will be fine, don't worry, you didn't fuck up badly. Take the batteries back out of the scale sweetie. You are beautiful the way you are, you don't have to go on a diet, you're healthy. Take care of yourself <3
ReplyDeleteLove,
Christie
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DeleteTake the batteries out? I'm not sure what you mean dear. Perhaps give it to one of your family members to keep, then?
DeleteLove,
Christie
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Deletewhat did she say wrong?, must be confused poor girl,sorry if i have missed something,laura
Deleteoh ruby agree with everyone so nothing really to add,just keep on trying to extend the time, a year is a big ask at first.you haven't messed up you are doing great. love you lots jo xxx
ReplyDeleteAs ever Jo
DeleteI was trying to run before I could walk
I need to take my own advice
And take baby steps x
i have something for you: http://quotefancy.com/quote/661162/Japanese-Proverb-Fall-down-seven-times-get-up-eight
ReplyDeletehere's a bit of food for thought (pun unintended):
what would you tell me if i told you this? you'd tell me you understand, but the number doesn't matter. just like i'd tell you that i understand, but the number doesn't matter. i feel like you should let your body get down to your setpoint, my love. no matter what it is, or how it's like, because you are so much more than a number.
eat well. you'd need the strength to fight off those mental demons.
-Sam Lupin
Thank you for this Sam
DeleteSo true
And yes
If you came to me with this issue
I would be sure to tell you that it's not the end of the world
And it's not
I'm stubborn
I can get back on track
And I will
Thank you as always Sam x
Ugh Ruby I'm sorry. If it helps I had to trip over myself several times before figuring out that certain habits (e.g. weighing myself) are very very unhealthy and will only continue messing with my head. I certainly didn't get it right the first time, and I STILL periodically have to fight the urge to get on the scale. No one is perfect; you'll get there!
ReplyDeleteI guess that is it Kaylee
DeleteWe live and learn
We are human after all
Thanks
I know you understand x
Try not to beat yourself up over it Ruby, slips happen, and goodness, you went three weeks without weighing, that in itself is a huge feat! I'm sorry that you felt it necessary to weigh yourself, and that your reaction to the number is such a distressing state for you, but hold on baby girl, you can (and will!) get back up on your feet! This is no easy journey, but you will keep pursuing it, and you will find your way out of the ensnarement of it. Focus on all of the positive things that you have received from your recovery so far, keep these in the forefront of your mind in such times as these, and reach out for support during these vulnerable moments. Thinking of you xx
ReplyDeleteDon't worry.
ReplyDeleteIt's a minor setback.
Xoxo shelby
As others have said, it's not a fuck up, it's a little slip up. You're not used to not weighing yourself, and it'll take time to adjust. You still made it those 2.5/3 weeks without, and nothing can take that achievement away.
ReplyDelete<3
xx