Life is becoming quite the complicated thing
Let me explain
As you know
I get up early each morning
And walk Honey and Lea
We either go to the local beach
One of the local lakes
Or down the back roads behind my house
This morning we decided to do the cliff walk over looking the beach that the surfers use
I don't know if I mentioned it
But every time I want to go in to the village
Or in to town
Or the beach
I have to drive by The Plumbers house as he lives on the main road
I was going in to town one day last week
When as I approached his house
He was pulling out in his work van
So I had to drive right by him
I really had to fight the urge to set my dogs on him
Or roll down my window and hurl abuse at him
I like to think I had a lucky escape there
So this morning
I was driving to the beach
And stopped in the village to get a couple of things in the shop
I was just after coming out
Was starting my car
When I saw The Boy pull in across the road
I knew it was him before I saw his face
As I know the reg of his car
At first I froze
I haven't heard from or seen The Boy in months
I dont think he saw me
As I sped out of my parking space and down the road
I didn't look in my rear view mirror
I didn't want to see him
I can't go back there
So I did what I always do
And carried on
I walked the dogs
Did some shopping
Got petrol
Went to the post office
I was
Just leaving town to go home
When I got stuck behind a few cars
And had to stop
Unfortunately
I was right outside the shop where I was caught doing you know what
(Can't bring myself to say the word)
And then
I saw the owner come out and stand T the door
Like right beside me
I just kept looking straight ahead
And prayed for a green light
Which eventually came after a few seconds
Ay Carumba
What a morning
I was on my way home
Had just come out of the post office
When a car drove by me
I recognised the people as people I used to use with
Again
Something I could do without
But that's life I guess
It just makes my day that bit more stressful and complicated
Trying to avoid people
And situations
But I guess the only thing to do is just get on with things
In other news
I rang the piercing studio
I think I am going to get a stud on my chin
Just below my lip
It costs €30
And it's walk in
So I don't have to make an appointment
I will definitely get it done before my birthday
So that's something to look forward to
Right
Must dash
See you anon
i love your recent post about weighing in and feeling indifferent to the number. i've also gotten there and it is such a relief. i actually had it this morning, i gained a bit in one day (all water weight) and i acknowledged it and moved on.
ReplyDeleteone of the things i used to do is stand by the mirror and say "you know, you look good. you're normal and healthy" and then get on those damned scales. and then i realise that the number is just...well, it's just a number. that's the thing. it is just a bleeding number.
measuring your worth by BMI is like measuring your worth by your oxygen saturation levels, or your iron levels. it makes no sense.
just wanted to say that.
oh wow. that's such a coincidence, honestly. the Plumber and the Boy seen in one day? fucking hell.
"I was right outside the shop where I was caught doing you know what" i'm that dense. i'm not even going to attempt to make sense of what i'm supposed to know.
oh! i'd love to see you with a stud! <3
love you, darling xxx
-Sam Lupin
It is a revelation Sammy
ReplyDeleteIt was really a big step for me
And it feels great
Don't get me wrong
I gave my bad days
But I have lots of good ones too
I know right?
What a day
It really was like an obstacle course
But I made it home safe sound
And that is the main thing
Love you too x
The gods were certainly having a good time with you this morning! I really hate being in those situations, I never know what to do. My usual defense is to try and fake being oblivious and pretend I don't notice them...
ReplyDeleteThat's exactly what I did Mich
DeleteIgnorance is bliss!! X
Not an hour after I read this post, I went to the shops on my lunch break to get some groceries
Deleteand
as I round the corner to go into the next aisle
RIGHT THERE
is this girl I used to be friends with
(am no longer because I never really liked her to begin with and eventually snapped and told her so when she was bullying one of my other friends)
I almost died. Haven't actually seen her in years.
I scurried away and I didn't think she saw me, but then she definitely saw me when she was on her way out and gave me the filthiest look I have ever seen.
Gosh Mich
DeleteWe both had a day of it
The Gods were not on our side today
But well done to you for standing up to that girl
I am thinking of doing something similar myself x
'Yikes!’ Whatta morning!! : (
ReplyDelete(what's next, juggling running chainsaws whilst tightrope walking above a shark-infested pool?!?!)
I mean c'MON >.>
Chuffed you braved it thru, dear one…
<3 Jils
* left out "BLINDFOLDED"
Ha!!
DeleteI know right?
The Gods were definitely not on my side today
But that's ok
I'm a tough cookie! X
Goodness, some things just can't be simple, can they? Sounds like you need a blanket fort for the next day or so.
ReplyDeleteHonestly, I'd like to think *he* had a lucky escape! ;)
AND The Boy?! God. It never rains but it pours.
So happy for you with your new piercing! That's an exciting day coming up soon. You'll have to send me a pic as soon as it's done!
Love <3
xxxx
Exactly Bella
DeleteI feel like I need to take to my bed after all that!
And I will of course send you a photo x
Eeeek! You must post pictures! I absolutely love that you're getting it! I think it actually might feel sort of liberating to do something for yourself and girl, please, we all have to sit by our past embarrassing moments from time to time. Don't sweat it. You can't change it so hold your head high knowing that you're a different person changing for the better every day love you tons!
ReplyDeleteYes of course I will definitely post photos
DeleteHopefully getting it done next Wednesday
Aw thanks for your kind words
Love you too x