You all know so much about me
Every little detail of my life is documented here for all to see
As you know
I am an open book
I write this blog as if no one will ever read it
I don't censor it
Or hide anything
It just wouldn't feel right if I wasn't been entirely honest
Maybe I'm honest to a fault
I don't know
But I don't know any other way to be
I know that sometimes it's not always the right thing to be so honest
And it has landed me in trouble more than once
I lied for a long time when I was using
And no good can come of it
So today I'm wondering about
My wonderful readers
To come out and introduce yourself
I know I do a post like this every so often
But I really do love to hear from you
Of course I know some of you
And always love to hear from you
But there are so many that I don't know
I look at my stats
And see readers from countries all over the world
Today I would love to hear from you
Maybe you are a long term reader who hasn't commented before
Maybe you read religiously
Every day
But have never written to me before
Maybe you are a new reader
And have just found this blog
I would love to know about you
Your name
Where you come from
Why you read
What your story is
Maybe you have an eating disorder
Maybe you don't
Maybe you have addiction issues
Or maybe someone close to you does
Maybe you're not sure one way or the other
Maybe you are suffering alone
Have no one to talk to
Maybe you suspect you have an ED
And want to know more
Calling all readers out there
Get in touch
Show me who you are
Be brave
Be bold
I would just love to know who is reading this blog
When you started reading
Why you read
Maybe you agree with what I write
Maybe you don't
Maybe you relate and identify
Maybe you don't
Whatever the reason
I am calling all readers
To get in touch today!
I'll look forward to hearing from you......
I'm from Australia and have been reading your blog for a few months. I really identify with your posts,as I too suffered with EDs for a few years and also had the same drug trajectory(h, mdone).
ReplyDeleteI'm not on mdone any longer, but I relate so much to the way you describe your relationship with it. the way it ends up being/seeming as essential as air .
I love your humanity and honesty,and hope that you can make a career out of your writing.you have real flair xx
Hello and welcome!
DeleteThank you for commenting and for reading and supporting your blog
I'm presuming that you are in recovery
And that is great
This is exactly why I write my blog
So people just like you won't feel alone
I wish you health and happiness x
I guess you kind of might know me Ruby... a little bit... as I have been reading on and off for a long time now.
ReplyDeleteI was WS and now write as firefly... but you know that already!
I love your honesty... and it really resonates with me. You wonder if you're honest to a fault. Me too! I often ask myself that! I seem to be more open than many...
I suffer badly with Anorexia.
I hate it.
I send you hug and a prayer. Your bravery and your questions, your search, your journey really comforts and inspires me.
firefly
x
Oh yes
DeleteI forgot that you were formerly WS
Thank you for reminding me
And sharing some things about you
Do you still write a blog Firefly
I am going to check right now x
Well, as you know I'm Swedish. But only by a quarter; I'm half Finnish, a quarter Russian and then Swedish.
ReplyDeleteI am a university drop-out. I always want to go back, but since I'm on disability I can't or I'll lose my benefits.
I have Asperger syndrome, mixed with depression, anxiety and social phobia. I have always had a disordered eating, going from picky eater to anorexia to binge eating to bulimia and on to EDNOS.
I have an addictive brain. My father drank himself to death, as did his brother. My aunt on my mother's side is also an alcoholic. This is the reason why I drink so rarely, because I am TERRIFIED to end up like them. I have never tried illegal drugs for that reason too (unless you count ephedrine, which isn't illegal everywhere). Since I have had psychotic episodes I'd probably end up with the psychosis from hell if I tried anything illegal.
Oh, my, this is long...
Thanks CP for this
DeleteOf course I know you
But it's always great to find out more
I get that about your family
My fathers side is riddled with addiction
As is my own immediate family
It's scary how prevalent it can be
I can also relate to your problem with going back to school
My disability will also be cut if I go back
What a messed up situation
Anyway
Thanks CP
Stay well x