New Years Eve

I just wanted to take the opportunity to wish all my readers, commenters and friends a very happy new year

It's hard to believe that another year has passed

And 2016 is just around the corner

I sincerely hope that he coming year is a good one

I guess it's down to me to make that happen

2015 started well

I was in a good place

Mood was good

Weight was stable 

Purging was at a minimum 

But the past couple of months have been tough

And I'm struggling to bounce back after my second bout of pancreatitis 

However 

I am fighting hard to get on top of this slip 

Before it turns in to a complete relapse 

Purging is a problem again 

And am purging up to five times a day 

I know 

This is not good 

For my physical health

My mental health 

It's a merry-go-round that's nigh on impossible to get off 

I don't want to stArt off the new year on a bad foot 

So happy new year to you

Where ever you may be

Who ever you are 

Thank you for reading this year

For commenting

Texting 

Emailing 

For supporting me 

For being there

For being honest with me even when it's hard to hear

Thank you for never judging me

For being a friend 

For catching me when I fell

For helping me put myself back together after I fell apart

For cheering me on through the good times

And never turning your back on me through the tough times 

Your words 

Your thoughts and wishes mean more to me than you will ever know 

I'm so grateful for this community 

Dwindling as it may be

It's a life line 

It's having human contact when real life doesn't provide it

I hope that the coming year is a good one for you

I hope all your hopes and dreams come true 

That tou meet all your goals and aspirations 

I hope the year is full of laughter and love

That it's the best year yet

Because you deserve it

We deserve it

God knows we have suffered enough 

If you make one promise this new year

Promise to be kinder to yourself

We are our own worst critic

Our very own bully 

We are so very hard on ourselves

And that has to stop

We need to look after ourselves

Because if we don't 

Who will?

The next time you go to best yourself up

Or tear yourself down

Stop

Think

Would you say this to a friend?

To a loved one?

I'm willing to bet not 

So why do we do it to ourselves?

Please 

Just be a bit nicer to you

You will feel the benefits 

I promise you

Happy new year

To you and yours 

Let's hope it's a good one....