Another year over.....

🎉We rang in the new year last night at home

There were 8 of us

We players board games 

And drank fizzy drinks out of champagne flutes 

When the clock striked 12

We all piled over to my neighbours house to wish her a happy new year

She said it had made her night 

I got to bed around 2am

And found it really hard to wake up this morning

I dragged my weary self out of bed

Made a cup of tea

And promptly fell back to sleep again on the couch 

I woke an hour later 

Still feeling extremely tired

But I put my coat and hat on

And headed out with Honey and Lea

I had been walking for about 5 minutes 

When I began feeling a little strange 

Like all blood had drained from my face

And I was going to throw up

I turned back straight away 

As I wasn't sure if I was going to pass out or not 

It took me forever to make it home 

Takings breaks

Stopping and starting 

But everything was difficult 

I couldn't get my breath 

My body felt like it was fighting against me

I arrived home finally 

My mother knew straight away something was wrong 

When I walked in and collapsed in to a chair 

I told her what had happened

She asked if I had pain

I didn't 

She made me tea and toast

And I took a hot water bottle in to the living room

Where I write this 

I have to admit 

I am worried 

That this is happening again

That my body is fighting against itself

Even if it's not quite pancreatitis 

It's still a sign that all is not well with my health  

Nothing about this is good

I'm going to leave it at that for now

I'm going to rest 

And try and take care of myself 

Until tomorrow....,