Friday 22 January

I finally got around to implementing my New Years resolution this week

And gave some money to my mum to save for me

I could save it myself 

But then I run the risk of temptation when I feel the urge to spend 

I'm really not all that good with money

At least up until now I haven't been

I remember when I went to the meetings

I heard several speak about their shopping addiction

I can relate to that 

The urge to spend 

The impulse to buy that skirt you just have to have

The feeling that my life would be complete if I had that pair of jeans

I'm trying save €30 a week

Plus money towards house keeping

It makes me feel good to contribute

And it's only fair seeing as I share this house too

It's a good life lesson

If I ever move out on my own 

I need to know how to budget my money 

And if it's a choice between buying food for the week or a pair of jeans 

I need to be able to make the right choice 

Because that's what responsible adults do

Right?

In other news

We have more visitors this week

My Dad is coming for the weekend 

As are my brother and his partner 

We are all going out for dinner tonight 

To celebrate my brothers book deal 

It's so great to have good news for a change 

For so long 

My family pin-balled from one crisis to another

There was always something 

Always drama 

Confrontation 

Tears and fights 

For so long 

We were falling apart

Crumbling 

We were horrid to each other

But now 

Well now things couldn't be more different 

Addiction is a thing of the past 

We get on now 

We actually like each other now  

We care about each other's well being now 

And that my friends

Is a friggin revelation 

I'm hoping to hear about the job soon

The closing date for applications was Wednesday 

The manager told me that they would go through them yesterday 

It might be early days to expect to hear from them today

But certainly by Monday or Tuesday 

I hope to find out that I've been called for an interview 

They are not calling everyone for interview 

But I really hope to be

Because I'd love the chance to make a case for myself in person

I want to show them that I am enthusiastic and motivated 

That I'm friendly 

Patient 

And wiling to learn

I'm probably getting my hopes up way too high 

But I can't help it 

I can't help getting excited at the prospect of being part of the working world 

Living life 

Being independent 

Taking care of my own stuff

And generally being a functioning member of society

I just want to be productive 

I wany to feel like I am worthwhile and valuable 

And have something to offer 

I feel like I could really do this job

And in fact

It wouldn't even be like a job

As I know I would enjoy the work 

Three evenings a week

From 4pm - 10pm is so manageable for me 

When I worked in the pizzeria

I was on the same hours  there 

And that suited me just fine 

So 

Here I am 

Hoping and praying 

I just want to know either way

As ever I will keep you posted....