First of all
Apologies for the radio silence
And for worrying you
It wasn't an intentional thing not to post
But I did feel the need to be quiet for a couple of days
Thank you for your comments and emails of concern
I am back....
It was a documentary about vanity in males
And the explosion in fitness and health among young men
In the documentary
Various young guys were interviewed
The camera followed one guy as he went about his daily routine
Spa treatments
Followed by a hair do
During which the hairdresser asked him if he was going out that night
The guy said he wasn't
That he was just going home to try n clothes
He admitted to taking hundreds of selfies a day
And posted the ones he deemed good enough on social media
During the documentary
This guy went back to his home town to see his family
He showed us his old school
Where he used to be bullied mercilessly
His nose had been broken
Twice
It soon became clear
That bubbling under the surface of this guys vanity
Was a lot of hurt
A lot of pain
And insecurity
He admitted that he used his looks as a shield
And seemed afraid to let anyone see the real him
He broke down in tears as he told us about his brother who had drowned
My heart went out to him
The documentary also followed the huge fitness craze amongst men at the moment
We were introduced to two cousins
Who were in the process of trying to build up a fitness empire on YouTube
They have 8000 followers
And post inspiring videos
They were both in amazing shape
You can't deny that
And they seemed like nice guys
I just don't think it's healthy to put so much focus and emphises on looks
Then there was 16 year old Duncan
Duncan was from Scotland
A body builder
We followed his story as he was competing in his first body building competition
He worked hard at his fitness
And on the day of the competition
He went to get his fake tan done
The results were hilarious
He was literally the colour of mahogany
But apparently they need to be dark while on stage
So the lights pick up the definition on the body
The last guy who was interviewed
Spoke about his battle with anorexia
After some cruel
Comments from a class mate about his weight
This young guy stopped eating
And lost 35 pounds in 3 months
He is now weight restored
And on the mend
But it's taken blood, sweat and tears to get there
I thought this documentary was eye opening
Like a lot of people do
It's easy to forget that men worry about their bodies too
I think in my four years here on blogger
I have only ever come across one make blogger
Who has since disappeared
This also bears out in treatment
Although the documentary stated that last year, 300 000 males in the UK were treated for eating disorders
In all my time in treatment
I only ever met one male
As hard as it is to be a female with an ED
I fear it must be even more difficult to be a make suffering with an ED
EDs are historically seen a rich white girls disease
Of course this is a stereotype
And categorically untrue
EDs do not discriminate
And can effect anyone
Any race
Any gender
Any age
It can happen to anyone
No one is immune
A big craze at the moment is fitness
It's everywhere
All over social media
In magazines
TV shows
In this country
There is a show called Operation Transformation
Where six members of the public try to change their lives by losing weight and getting fit
And at the moment there is a noticeable increase in the amount of people out walking and running
The shops are full of active wear clothing
There is also a campaign here to try as a nation to lose one million pounds
Now I'm all for getting fit and healthy
But there is a line
A very fine line
Where if you cross it
You become obsessed with it
It used to be mostly women who felt the pressure to tone up
But now it seems that men have the same, if not more pressure, on their shoulders
Where males are concerned
It seems it is the bigger the better
Where as we girls seem to buy in to the idea that small is best
It's the thing that unites both men and women
We want to look out best
And our image has never been so important
Because we put our lives on line for all to see
On Facebook
Instagram
Twitter
It seems that something didn't really happen
Unless it was captured on camera
And posted on Facebook
They say a person makes up their mind about someone in seconds
We assess others in jig time
Their appearance
Their body language
Their hair
Their clothes
We decide if they are some one we want to know
If we are attracted to them
If we don't like them
And all before even speaking to someone
Everything is visual nowadays
We take photos of everything
Our food
Our pets
Our children
Our holidays
Our outfits
And we all look at everyone else's photos too
In a kind of a 'who has the best life?'competition
When I was in rehab for the first time
There was a pro boxer
Who got obvious reasons
I will call The Boxer
He was bulimic
And felt massive pressure to make weight
I can remember him at meal times
He would eat his own food
And anything you left on your plate
He was also a cocaine addict
And came in to treatment very thin
Almost doubled his body weight in four months
I wonder how he is now
I think that images of models and very thin actresses and celebrities can exacerbate an ED
But I don't think they cause one solely by themselves
I think there are many factors that contribute towards someone developing an ED
With all that said
I was wondering about you
Have you come across many males in the ED world?
Was their experience different to ours?
Why do you think that we don't hear from a lot of men here on blogger?
Inquiring mind want to know....
I have met two anorexic guys!
ReplyDeleteOne was a gay drag queen but he was very troubled generally - unhappy childhood stuff - but his boyfriend really like him frail and ill!!. It was all bit...sick. i wonder where he is now...i worry he has died. Drugs were also an issue. His family were dirt poor, just to bust that sterotype. Poor dear that he was...so kind but also sad.
The other guy was into Rockabilly. He actually had bulimia as well. He was nice, quite functional i suppose. He had a few inpatient stints. He was very perfectionistic and had a well to do background.
....continued
ReplyDeleteHe had a wife (also rockabilly) who politely put up with him for a long time but she told me he'd throw tantrums after weighing himself and cry after meals. I think she just....didn't want to see it. She herself was very beautiful, very curvy, gorgeous actually. She made a lot of beautiful iced cakes and loved entertaining so i think she just saw he wasn't willing to change. As far as i can tell, he still hasn't - 8 years later.
Shelby
That's really sad Shelby
DeleteGosh
How could anyone want their partner to be so ill?
That in itself is sick and twisted
I guess they are out there
Males with EDs
Lesser spotted
But they are there
Shelby are you blogging these days?
How are you? X
Not right now. I will again soon. I'm kind of at a crossroads in life i guess.
DeleteMy best friend has had ED issues for most of his life. We shared ED's in high school and for a few years after I finished college as well. There was actually a point where I was afraid I'd have to distance myself from his for a while as I was really struggling to recover and he was in full blown anorexia. He goes for extremes--either eat all the food, or eat none of it, and so his weight has also gone to extreme highs and lows over the years. Currently he's trying to just be healthy, and so far it's going well. I hope it lasts.
ReplyDeleteI remember a couple male bloggers in our little community from a few years ago, but they've both long since disappeared.
Glad you're doing ok. Any news on the job?
That's the sad thing Mich
DeleteWe have to look after ourselves
Protect ourselves
And sometimes that means distancing ourselves from those who are still on the grip of the illness
Thanks for your email by the way
I hope I didn't worry you
No word on the job yet
I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing x
I haven't met an anorexic male but km really into the bodybuilding world and I know many have what they call "bigorexia". The thing I love about lifting is adding that extra few pounds and concurring it. There's something amazing about hitting a new max, feeling the definition, feeling stringer than you thought possible. I also know that when I'm away from the gym membership for a few days I panic. It's a very fine line and it takes discipline to achieve a competitive body. It's a whole community in itself. I think at times I feel unhealthy about it and other times I make a lot of friends with similar goals. Also, I love fitness clothing. :) so comfortable.
ReplyDeleteSorry for all the typos.. I was on my phone. Lifting saved me from anorexia but I know it has its dangers.
DeleteYes I've heard of bigorexia Eve
DeleteI remember Mary showing me some picture of men with the condition
It was really shocking
But then anorexia is shocking too
I guess they are both in the same spectrum
I love your positive attitude Eve
It shines out of you
And I am so very proud of you
You have turned in to a beautiful young woman
I hope that doesn't sound patronising
I genuinely wanted to give you a compliment x
No! Your compliments mean so much to me Ruby. I remember I started blogging my second year of undergrad and I'm almost done with my masters. That's about four years together we've been on this journey. I'm really proud of YOU!
DeleteI know several males with disordered eating, however very few with an eating disorder. The one male I do know who had an eating disorder is now recovered, and he's transgender. I always wonder too, about how transgenders must suffer with body image, not feeling as though there body was made for them, and how difficult that must be
ReplyDeleteThat's a good point Niqi
DeleteAnd it make sense that they would be anxious and uncomfortable if they feel they are in the wrong body
I can't imagine how confusing and stressful that would be x
Ruby, did you watch World's Maddest Interview?
ReplyDeleteLouisa xxx
I haven't yet Louisa
DeleteI went back to find the link again
Can you send it to me again please
Thanks my dear x
http://www.channel4.com/programmes/worlds-maddest-job-interview
DeleteIf it doesn't work, go to the 4od website and type "World's Maddest Job Interview' in the search box. Enjoy xxx
Thanks Hun
DeleteMy sister and I gonna watch it over the weekend x