Honey, holidays and huge amounts of gratitude

Today is Thursday

And my working week is finished 

I work Sunday 12pm-8pm

Monday 8pm-4pm

And Tuesday 8-4pm

24 hours a week

Which is nice

I am really enjoying work 

I can feel my confidence boosting 

And my general well being is very good

It's a great feeling to know that I am working 

Earning money

Out and about in the world meeting new people

I especially love that I am helping people enjoy a much needed break away

I love that our centre makes a difference in people's lives

A lot of that is down to my manager 

She is an amazing person

Just 40 years old 

She has been running the holiday centre and the old people's home beside it for the last 12 years

She really sets the tone in the house

She is efficient yet friendly 

Firm but fair

Hard working but always has time to chat

She is a fantastic role model

And I admire her greatly 

She always takes the time to ask me how my Dad is

And also how I'm feeling with my low confidence and self esteem

It really is the perfect place to re introduce myself back in to the working world 

And of course it's brilliant to have a few extra pounds in my pocket

In September 

I am treating my Mam to a little holiday

I will go horse riding

And Mal will potter around and relax in the hotel

So that's something to look forward to

I can't wait!

In other news 

Honey is going back to the vet on Saturday 

About her remaining eye that looks cloudy and blood shot

She has already been to the vet here

But she sent me home with no answers and told to just wait and see

And charged me €40 for the privilege 

So we are going back to the vet who removed her eye three years ago

As he is the best of the best

Honey is ok

If a bit cranky

But we are just worried that she will lose the eye she has

I mean I don't know if a dog can live a comfortable life with no eyes

I guess I would have to keep her inside 

And she would need a lot of support

But I would be willing to do that if it meant she gets to stay around 

Lea is also having a check up too

Even though they are both old ladies now

I feel sure they have a few years left in them

They have literally been by my side for the past 12 years

I can't imaging life without them

They bring so much life to our house

I feel safer and calmer knowing they are there

They are fantastic company too

I just love them so much 

And dread the day that I don't bring them home

What else?

I'm still going to my doctor every week

This morning my usual doctor was away 

So I saw 'Nice Woman Doctor'

She is lovely 

Told me she had listened to my radio interview 

And had also read some of my blog

I felt a bit naked when she said this

As I forget that I was on local radio

Talking about something so personal

She was lovely though

And told me there was a huge change in me

There is I guess

Both physically and mentally and emotionally 

I have moved on from the sick, addicted lonely girl that I was 

And am living my life in a way I never have in my whole life
Even though I have been through so much in my time
I feel extremely blessed to have the life I have
I am well and healthy
I live with my Man who I love dearly
And we get on great
I have amazing brothers and sisters
Two dogs and a pony who I adore
I am in a good place
Have great friends
I am lucky to have a job I love
Hobbies that feed my soul
My life is far from perfect
And I am no poster girl for recovery
But I am now happy and content with what I have
I want for nothing
And I believe my family and friends would move heaven and earth to help me

The past couple of weeks
Cocos owner has been avoiding me
Not answering my calls or texts
So yesterday I decided to phone him from my Mams phone
And lo and behold he answered
I was pretty annoyed and I let him know so
He told me that he's very busy with work and couldnt be dusty
What alias of old shit