I hope you know that you can get well
I hope you know that your eating disorder doesn't define you
It doesn't mean you are crazy or weak or defective
I hope you know that you are unique, there is only on of you and no one can ever replace you
I hope you know that thoughts are just thoughts, we don't have to act on them
I hope you can remember that once you were happy and free and you can be again
I hope you know that it's possible to recover, people do recover
I hope that you believe in yourself or at least can accept that others believe in you
I hope you know that even if you fall, you can get up even stronger
I hope you know that you would be missed if you were gone
I hope you can see that you are lovable
I hope you know that happiness is not a dress size
It's not a weight
It's not measured on a scale
It's not a number
Happiness is not how small your waist is
Or how much your bones protrude
Strength is not how long you can starve for
How long you can exercise
How much weight you can lose
Strength is fighting back
Not giving in to the eating disorder
It's eating even though you don't want to
Even though even fibre of your being feels that it is wrong
Strength is eating and allowing the food to stay in your stomach
It's keeping going when all you want to do is hide in your bed
It's not letting this thing rule and ruin your life
Strength is choosing to live even though it would be easier to die
It's doing the right thing for you even when it's not popular with others
It's having the courage to be yourself
It's speaking your truth
It's being you
With love,
Ruby x
Ruby, I love this... this makes me smile. I know it's not easy in any way but it is possible.
ReplyDeleteI am on day 8 and I am feeling more free... I talked to my David, everything is good with us... I could never disappoint him and I had forgot that, he still thinks I am wonderful.
You are wonderful Ruby... You are amazing... don't forget that... you inspired me :)
I love this :-)
ReplyDeleteIsn't it awful tho that as soon as I saw the post on my blog roll, the picture of the guy standing between the trees was on the excerpt and what did I see instead? muffins. Seriously. I saw two half muffin tops (the trees on either side of the picture) and the muffin cases (the tree trunks on the picture)...
How is EVERYTHING in my head about food all the time?!
Love you xxx
Ruby I love you, I love this, my heart is just bursting with pride and happiness for you! You spread so much hope and strength and positivity and motivation and inspiration and every word that signifies something amazing, this is you, beautiful Ruby! XXX
ReplyDeleteOh wow Ruby... so much hope, positivity, and strength in this post. I love your blog. You're so honest, sharing all your highs and lows, you are such an encouragement and support :) hope you are doing ok. You truly are amazing!! xxx
ReplyDeleteI wish every girl in the world could read this post. It should be part of their schooling! Lovely, Ruby! :)
ReplyDeletethank you for such a wonderful, lovely post, Ruby.
ReplyDeleteThis is such a selfless, inspiring piece of writing and it really does show you have fight in you and that you absolutely can do this.
I hope that you can also look back on this little compilation and believe in it as well as others.
Well done xxxxx
I love these! They brightened my day and gave me inspiration to be good today. I hope they did the same for you!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. I hope you realise that this post applies to you too!
ReplyDeleteHave you watched any MLP:FiM? Inside you there is a tiny yellow pegasus pony screaming 'YOU ARE GOING TO LOVE ME!' That pony is you, yelling at yourself.
Love you <3