Day 3

Just to give you an update on the 90 day challenge

It's turning out not to be as straight forward as I thought

Monday is doctor day as you know

I was up early 

And my mum the dogs and I headed in to the surgery

Mum took the dogs for a walk while I went to see my doctor

He asks how I am

I explain that I am doing better

And getting to more meetings

He asks me to do a drug test

Which is no problem as I know I haven't used 

The only reason it will be positive is if there are still reminints of the drug in my system

I retire to the rest room

And do the delicate balancing act of peeing in to a little cup

Thankfully I go with little effort

I clean up

And flush

And head back in to my doctor

He checks it after a minute

It's negative

That's good

That's progress I think

At least now I know I am drug free

The next topic he brings up is that of my methadone reduction

He reminds me we were going to drop it today

I ask if we can wait one more week

He agrees

I am relieved 

I go and collect my meds

And head down to the beach to meet my mum

I take my meds in the car

I am still on daily dispensing

My doctor told me he will change that next week

We head home

And I sleep for a few hours

Mum goes to work at about four 

She tells me I shouldn't go in to town tonight as the weather is due to be bad

I had planned to go to a meeting

And I really wanted to go 

Against my better judgement 

I set off for the meeting at eight

However about 10 minutes later I have to pull in

As it is beginning to sleet

I ring my dad to ask him if the weather was due to get worse

He said it was 

And suggested I turn back

I don't want to

But I know it would be foolish to continue on

So I swing my car around 

And head home

I feel mildly annoyed that I didn't get to my meeting

As I really wanted to do 90 in 90 days

But as my mum said

I did my best to get there

My intentions were good

And I can make up for it during the week

The next meeting is tomorrow lunch time

So I am looking forward to that

I know that sometimes the universe conspires 

And life doesn't turn out the way we want or expect

And that's ok

Shit happens

Tomorrow is a new day

And all I can do is my best