'Tell me why I don't like Mondays'

I can't quite believe how quickly the weeks are flying in

Monday seems to come around so very quickly

The days can be long 

But they don't be long adding up

As usual

I was in the doctors first thing this morning

Today

Topics included

The Oscars

Making films 

Horses and how my doctor is afraid of them 

Last week 

It being EDAW

I told my doctor that I would bring him in something to read 

The something being the piece I wrote for the ED convention back in 2013

So I gave him said piece 

And told him it was something to read on his coffee break

He seemed excited to read it 

I don't know why I haven't given it to him before now 

I guess that piece is precious to me 

And my doctor being an avid reader 

I was worried about what he would think of it and my writing 

I haven't let many people read it

I mean yes

I read it out at the convention

And I have it up in my blog 

But they are strangers 

Letting people I know read it is another matter 

But anyway 

He has it now 

I'll be interested to see what he makes of it

From a medical point of view 

And from a literary point of view 

He took it from me 

And placed it beside his computer

As I left 

It was all I could do not to reach across him and snatch it back

And run out of the room

But 

I think it might give him an insight in to the mind of a person with an ED

I mean of course he knows the medical side of things 

And I guess that's his job 

The head and mind stuff is up to the psych team 

Anyway 

He has it now 

It will be I interesting to see what he makes of it next week

After my weekly dose of doctor 

I headed up to the pharmacy 

Handed over my script 

Then decided to head over to the bank to see how little money I have for the week

I checked my balance 

Which was just enough to see me through the next few days 

Then began walking back to the pharmacy 

It was a bitterly cold morning 

With a sharp wind

I pulled my coat around me 

And took my gloves out of my pocket 

As I fought the wind 

And tried to put my gloves on 

I managed to drop one 

And it being a windy day

It took off down the street

I had no choice but to run after it

Every time I got close to it

It was whipped out of my grasp by the wind 

It was a wild goose chase

There I was sprinting down the street after my wayward glove

I got quite a few funny looks

Eventually 

I made a huge leap

Like an Olympic long jumper

And landed on the glove 

Feeling very pleased with myself that I had managed to catch it

In other news

I am getting my next piercing done on Friday 

My sister is going to come with me

And I am super excited!

I am think that getting my labret pierced is going to be much more painful than my nose 

But I am ready for it 

And anyway

The pain only lasts a second 

So I will pull up my big girl pants 

And suck it up

But I am really looking forward to getting it done

It's like buying a new item of clothing 

Something to make me feel good about myself 

My poor Mother is horrified at the prospect of another piercing 

She pleads with me not to get it done 

I tell her she will get used to it 

Just like my nose 

She said that she tolerates my nose ring at best 

Like a typical mother 

She says to me 

'You're going to ruin your beautiful face'

But I feel it will enhance my face 

And make for an interesting feature to my face 

Like a feature wall in a living room

Or something to that effect

I am becoming increasingly worried about my teeth 

As you know 

I had a lot of very labour intensive and expensive work done on my teeth last year 

And because my purging has increased again in recent months 

I fear my teeth may fall in to ruin

Just like my real teeth did

Every time I purge 

I promise myself that this will be the last time 

But it never is 

I continue to purge 

To put my body under huge stress

And my teeth being washed with stomach acid 

Every time I throw up

It's a worry

And a huge incentive to stop purging

But like any addiction

It's nigh on impossible to stop

I need to do it though 

Before it damn well kills me 

With all that said 

I was wondering about you 

If you have experienced bulimia

What helped you to stop purging?

How did you stop?

And how did you stay stopped?

Any tips or advice much appreciated....