A (A - Z Blogging Challenge)

I signed up to do the A - Z Blogging Challenge

Then promptly forgot about it 

I saw Mich had started it

So I thought

Better late than never right?

So 

The letter A

Well it's a bit obvious 

But A is for anorexia

I was diagnosed with anorexia when I was 19

Although looking back over my life

I can see that my food issues started when I was a child

As a youngster 

I had a thing about bread

I would be in a friends house 

And I would take slices of bread to eat

I also remember my mother throwing bread out for the birds

Which I would then eat 

I've always loved my food 

Growing up 

I preferred proper dinners to burgers and chips 

I can remember I used to eat a certain way

And kept the foods I liked best until last

Through out my twenties

I lost and gained so much weight 

I've been every weight from emaciated to healthy and back again

Over the years 

My anorexia morphed in to bulimia 

And can no longer starve the way I used to

If anorexia is cool and silent and aloof

Then bulimia is her loud, brash and in your face cousin

Both are equally soul destroying 

Thankfully 

Today I am doing well

I am of a healthy weight

And I am the most stable I have been in a long time 

I don't think I will ever recover fully

Like any addiction 

An eating disorder is managed not cured 

Recovery is not a straight road

Sometimes it feels like one step forwards and two steps back 

But the important thing is to keep putting one foot in front of the other 

And to keep going