The Day of Rest

This weekend 

I am taking the opportunity to relax and get prepared for the start of my working week next Friday

I am in for more training Tuesday and Thursday 

Then my first live shift is the evening shift on Friday

That weekend is a bank holiday weekend here 

So I will be working Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday

These consecutive days will really give me a chance to throw myself in at the deep end 

And get stuck in 

Georgina keeps reiterating 

That this job is mainly about common sense 

I just hope I have enough 

I really hope I can do this 

And I haven't bitten off more than I can chew 

I feel like at the moment

There is a huge clock, counting down to my first shift 

D Day 

I am both terrified and excited to start work 

All I can do is my best 

And I will most definitely give it my all

If I can just hold my nerve 

And turn up for work everyday

I really think it will do me the power of good 

With my confidence 

Self esteem

Everything 

I can't stress enough 

How important this job is 

I really think it will make or break me

But maybe I shouldn't put too much pressure on myself 

Maybe I should take it day by day

Shift by shift 

And go from there 

I went horse riding again yesterday 

I was on Princess

And was instructed by Roisin

For a change 

We went out to the outdoor arena 

As the weather was fine

It felt great to ride out in the fresh air 

I felt so free

Princess is starting to co-operate with me 

But I really need to work on my control of the horse 

We did a lot of trotting 

Jumped some small jumps 

And did a good bit of cantering towards the end of the session 

It was brilliant 

Every time I go 

I just want to do more and more 

I would do it every single day if I could 

It gives me a natural high

A feeling that drugs used to give me 

Except this is better 

There are no negative effects

It's good for me 

I am so grateful to have found something that I am passionate about 

That feeds my soul

It's also something to work at 

To progress and improve 

Something to work towards 

I can't explain to you how much I love it 

I'm actually surprised that I haven't found riding until now 

I guess dancing was my thing when I was younger 

And then I went off the rails after that 

So horse riding never really came up for me 

Anyway

I've found it now 

And better late than never right?

That's really all to report for today folks 

Life is good 

I am good 

You can't ask for much more than that....