Introvert or Extrovert?

My sister lived in Australia for 12 years 

And came back to live with us a couple of years ago

She was going through a hard time 

Battling depression and anxiety 

And wanted to be at home 

Personally 

I was delighted she came home 

As I get on very well with her 

But I did notice a lot of changes in her 

She had a lot less energy 

And she craved quietness and warmth

We live in a bungalow 

But we have two bedrooms renovated upstairs

And my sisters bedroom is one of those 

She calls it her 'Nest'

It's very silent up there 

And warm 

And she regularly retreats there to have a nap 

Or to watch something on her laptop

Sometimes I get texts asking me to go up and visit her 

And often I'll get in to the bed with her 

I enjoy the coziness 

But that's where the similarities end

When I get up in the morning 

The first thing I do is turn on the radio 

Often times I turn it on while snoozing in bed 

I like the radio 

And it's constantly on here at home 

However 

When my sister comes in 

The first thing she does is turn off the radio

I like it because it's background noise 

And it takes me away from my own thoughts 

Which may or may not be negative

I like to have something else to focus on

To take me away from myself and my own little worries 

My sister can't stand noise of any kind 

And craves peace and quiet 

Anyway 

Where am I going with this?

Yes 

My sister posted a pic on FB about extroverts and introverts 

And the difference between the two

She identifies as an introvert 

And that got me thinking about what I am 

I definitely don't fit neatly in to one category 

I guess like everyone 

There are times when I am an extrovert 

And times when I am an introvert 

As I tend to be pretty quiet around people i don't know 

And louder and more gregarious around people I do know 

I also tend to find it easier to talk to strangers for some reason

I think I can put people in to categories 

I was bullied for a while as s child 

By girls from the rougher and tougher tech school 

This school was near my house 

So I passed these girls every day on the way home from school 

It was nothing serious 

Mainly bitchy comments 

A few pushes

They tried hard to scare me 

And it worked to a certain extent 

But ever since then 

Girls like this have made me feel uneasy 

What girls?

Well girls who are rough 

Loud 

Often very pretty

And definitely intimidating 

I can identify them immediately 

And I revert back to being that scared school girl 

Because of this 

As a teenager 

I often sought out boyfriends and friends who were the male equivalent of these girls 

So I had someone on my side 

And I may even be accepted by said girls  

As some of you will know 

Bullying can really damage self esteem and confidence 

Before these incidents 

I was well on my way to becoming an extrovert 

But that wasn't to be 

And I ended up the way I ended up 

But now 

I put people in to categories 

And that's not a good thing 

Everyone should be equal 

And it would be nice if that were always the way 

But it's not

At least for me anyway 

Now I am an extrovert trapped in an introverts body 

I would love to be myself more 

But often I let shyness and lack of confidence swallow me up 

This is one of the reasons I love blogging 

As I find it much easier to communicate through the written word 

Rather than speaking

But I guess a lot of people are like that 

So 

With all that said 

And I have covered a lot in this short post 

I was wondering about you 

Do you consider yourself an extrovert or introvert?

Are you a bit of both? 

Have you been bullied love me me ?

How did it effect you in later life?

Answers on a postcard please....