Sick

I'm off school today

And was off yesterday too

Since I started my course four weeks ago

I've been experiencing severe bouts of diarrhoea in the mornings

At first I put it down to my change in routine 

And adjusting to my course 

But recently 

It's been getting worse 

I get like clockwork every morning 

But not for the rest of the day

On Sunday night 

I woke up and threw up a few times

So just to be sure 

I took yesterday off 

I got up this morning 

Planning to go in 

But I had too pretty bad bouts in quick succession 

So I made an executive decision

And decided to stay at home 

I did speak to my doctor last week

And he said to keep an eye on it

And notice when I am getting it

And when I don't 

Over the weekend 

I didn't have any diarrhoea at all

But come Monday morning 

It came back 

I'm starting to think that it might be nerves or anxiety 

I don't actually feel stressed 

But I guess it could be bubbling away under the surface 

Starting this course was a huge step 

And I think it's perfectly natural to feel nerves and anticipation

But I thought four weeks in I would feel a bit more settled 

Of course 

In saying that 

I am still adjusting 

And finding my feet 

But I definitely believe that emotional stresses can cause physical reactions 

I rang my doctor today 

And the receptionist told me that I couldn't be seen 

She said I could go in only if it was an emergency 

I told her I needed a cert for school

But she said that wasn't an emergency 

Nice 

So I'll have to wait until Friday to get a sick cert 

It's nice to have a couple of days off 

But I would much rather be in school 

As I don't want to miss out 

Because I am struggling to keep up as it is 

Apart from that 

I am doing welll

I feel good 

I feel healthy and strong 

Not weak or delicate like I used to

I'm loving my course 

Two new girls started this week

But I haven't met them yet

Which is more anxiety meeting new people 

The girls on my course have been just lovely 

Texting me to check on me

And just being good friends 

I am going to go in to tomorrow regardless 

Because I know the longer I leave it 

The harder it will be to get back in to a routine 

Anyway 

Just a quick post today 

Thanks for reading 

And see you on the next post....