Day 2

So it's Day 2

And I still feel excited about the 90 day challenge 

I woke early

Determined again to stay busy again so the committee it my head wouldn't talk me out of going

Physically I'm not feeling great

As I have my period

I had to drag my weary body out of bed this morning

But I'm so glad I did

I had to leave my sister at the bus stop

As she is going away for a few days

Then walked Honey and Lea

Came home

Quick cuppa

Got changed

And set off to collect Marie

We arrived at the venue

I had butterflies in my tummy

I hadn't been to this meeting in years

And was nervous to say the least

We went in and took our seats

I watched the people coming in

Some I recognised 

Some I didn't 

I had already decided that I wasn't going to speak

I just didn't have the courage or confidence

For those of you that don't know

It goes like this

Someone opens the meeting

And reads the preamble 

And the steps

Then someone else does 'The top table'

Which means they share their story of addiction and recovery

It's always great to listen to these speakers

It was just what I needed to hear today

One by one

Everyone spoke

Until it was just me left 

I was so nervous

But somehow I got the words out

My name is Ruby 

And I'm an addict

I haven't said those words in such a long time

But they are so true

I am an addict

A recovering addict

I spoke briefly about how I had just returned to meetings after a relapse

And that I was very grateful to have made it back in to the rooms

Relatively unscathed

When I had finished speaking

The woman next to me 

Reached over and took my hand

I was really touched

All in all

The meeting lasted two hours

Which is unusually long

But it did the trick

As it always does

And reminded me why I need the rooms

And the people in them

Tomorrow will be my first evening meeting

Which will be harder to get to I think

As I will have all day to deal with my crazy head

And the argument back and forth of whether I should or shouldn't go

But

I'll deal with that tomorrow

For now

I'm going for another walk in the sunshine

And enjoy the rest of my day

Below is my calendar for keeping track of my days

A doggy one of course

2 down

88 to go