General update

Monday again

The start of another week

Time goes by so very quickly

As per usual

I saw my doctor first thing

'Any crack?' He asked me

So I told him about Honey

And having to go to my hometown to see a vet

He asked me if it was hard going back there

Given that's where I grew up

And did a lot of my using

I told him that I always go with someone

But that I did feel uneasy bring there 

I thought about telling him about my blast from the past

The boy

And I did mention it

I told him that even though I moved across the country to get away from drugs and the people I used with

The past has a way of catching up on us

I've been thinking about the boy situation

I'm wondering if maybe I'm thinking about him a lot 

As he is the first male I've had a frisson with since starting to recover

Boys just weren't on my agenda when I was ill

I didn't want to live

Never mind share my life with someone else

Maybe I shouldn't let myself fall for the first boy that shows an interest in me

There's plenty of fish and all that

In other news

My weight has been stable recently

At a BMI of 19 - 20

I think I am ok with that 

I can live with that

I can work with that 

Honey has made a miraculous recovery 

And is back in fighting form

I think she looks so cute with one little eye

Like a teddy bear whose eye has fallen out

She is coming for walks again now

It just been myself and Lea for a couple of weeks

Which was nice as I got to spend some quality time with Lea

Here are said dogs......