Second meeting

Yesterday

I met the boy for the second time

I met him in the village

And we went back to his place

As his dog had puppies

And I really wanted to see them

I felt really shady

Because I had to lie to my mother about where I was going

As I knew she would worry if I told her where I was really going

I said I was going to meet a girlfriend

Although I think she knew something was up

As she kept telling me to be careful when I went out

So I met the boy at one 

And we headed out to his place 

He has two dogs too

And the puppies were just adorable

We just watched them for ages

We didn't do much

Had tea 

And chatted for a few hours 

I felt more comfortable than I did the first time I met him

His house mate was there too part of the time

Before I went out to his house

I told him I had to babysit at five

So I had a reason to leave if I needed to

But really I could have stayed there all day

We talked about everything and anything

It was easy

I think we both felt comfortable

The longer I was there

The more I felt like we were just friends

He didn't try to jump me or anything 

I was glad of that

At about five

I said I had better go 

So the boy dropped me back down to my car

Then came another awkward goodbye

So I gave him a hug

And we left it at that

I had told my sister where I was going

She had texted me a couple of times while I was out

To make sure I was ok

And I was

I didn't feel uncomfortable or unsafe or anything like that

I arrived home 

And went straight to talk to my sister

I told her about my day

And that ideas pretty sure we were just friends

She told me that I should tell my mum about seeing him

So I decided that I would

I changed my clothes

Made a cup of tea

And joined my mother in the kitchen

I sat beside her

And asked if I could speak to her

She said of course

I told her I had something to tell her

Her face tensed

And I could see she was bracing herself

'I'm back in contact with someone' I said

'Who?' She asked

I told her who

As I said his name

Her whole face seemed to drop

She put her hand over her eyes

And I thought she was going to start crying

She said nothing for a minute

I waited 

She looked at me 

And in no uncertain terms said

'Ruby, you know how I feel about him and all of that crowd' 

She said that she always got a bad feeling about the boy

And that he was 'menacing'

She continued that I had worked so hard to get where I am

And that I was putting my recovery and my life in jeopardy

She really had a very strong reaction upon hearing the boys name

She seemed angry even

I can understand why she had this reaction

I used to use with this guy

And I know my family are still terrified that I could relapse

My mother said that the boy is not welcome near our house

And she would prefer that I didn't see him

I told her that I am an adult

And that I am mature enough to make my own decisions

And I am

I have to say

I don't get a bad feeling off the boy

I really like him

But I do understand where my mother is coming from

So I guess it will be tricky to see him now

My family will be on high alert

I'm not sure how to handle this

Do I respect my mothers wishes and stay away?

Or do I do my own thing

And continue to see him?

As of yet

I really don't know 

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