OCD?

I have never been formally diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder

But I expect that I have a mild form of it

Ever since I was a child 

I've displayed many of the characteristics of OCD

Here are some of them

My things have to be a certain way

For example

On the coffee table in our living room

I have a section of it that is for my stuff

I have my notebooks that I am using

Piled from large to small

I have the AA directory 

So I can check where the nearest meeting is on any given day

I have my two pens

One black 

One purple 

I have a nail cleaner type thing (Technical term)

I have a nail scissors

My glasses 

And the tv remote which we call the 'clicker'

All of these things are poised in a certain way so they form a rectangle

I get just a little bit anxious and annoyed when people move said items

When I am sitting on the sofa in my living room

Things also have to be a certain way

The throw over the sofa has to be positioned just so

As do the cushions

And the other clicker is place on my leg when I am lying down

Am I nearing a diagnosis yet?

Another symptom

When I am watching the tv 

The volume has to be on an even number

Numbers are a big thing

Even numbers are generally good

And odd ones are not so much bad as just not as acceptable or good as even ones

I can't even explain this one

It is what it is

Then there are the OCD traits linked to my ED

All my cups, glasses, plates,bowls and cutlery are carefully selected 

The cups I use 

I have many of them

And use one per day

The only glasses I use are pint glasses

Do I can keep track of quantity throughout the day

Plus I drink a lot when I eat because it helps if I am going to purge 

I have certain plates and bowls that I use

They are of a certain size and shape

And cutlery

I have a set of cutlery that I use

And nothing else will do!

Why?

I have no earthly clue

Then there is the food itself

I have a ritual with the way I eat food

I keep my pint glass to the left of my plate

The salt to the right

Because I literally cover my food with salt

And eat in a ritualistic way

Numbers feature a lot in my possible OCD

Weighing is another ritual

I might weigh once a day

Or I might weigh ten times a day

But every time is the same

I use the bathroom

I lock my bedroom door

Place the scale on the wooden floor 

Strip 

And I mean everything comes off

Socks

Undies

Everything 

I tap the scale to set it to zero

Hold my breath

And step on

There are always rules around numbers

Acceptable numbers

Unacceptable numbers

Safe numbers 

Unsafe numbers 

It's all a game 

OCD also appears when I am walking my dogs 

I do a beach and cliff walk every morning

There are various different paths I use

But all the while I am walking

I'm not enjoying the splendid scenery

The ocean

The birds

Oh no

All the while I am walking

I am trying to avoid the cracks in the ground

Jumping

Hopping

Swerving 

And leaping 

All so I won't stand on a crack

I mean 

What exactly  is going to happen if I do stand on a crack?

Absolutely nothing I suspect

But yet I continue to hop-scotch my walks

The other behaviour I have ritualistic tendancies around is purging

Again I have a routine

After I eat the food

I walk calmly to the bathroom

Walking through the living room so people don't know I am going to the bathroom

I lock the door

Tie my hair back

Push up my sleeves

Lift the toilet seat 

Bend over the toilet

And purge

Afterwards

I flush the toilet 

Go to the sink

Rinse my hands and mouth 

Then go back to the toilet

Clean anything that needs it

Place the lid back down 

Wash my hands again 

Fix my hair 

And anything else that needs fixing

Unlock the door

And rejoin whoever I happen to be with

I erase said purging from my mind

It's like it never happened

I'm sure there are other OCD related behaviours 

But these are the ones that appear daily

I was wondering about you

Do you have any OCD tendancies?

What are they?