Any thing you like
Maybe about addiction or ED
Or about something completely different
I will do my best to answer it
As you know
I am pretty much an open book
So no topic is off limits
I get asked questions through email
So I though I would dedicate a post to it
I am handing the floor ovet to you
What would you like to know........?
The hardest one of all: where do you see yourself in five years' time? What are your wishes, or goals?
ReplyDeleteOh that is a tricky one CP
DeleteI'll do my best to answer it
I don't tend to look too far in to the future
I take it day by day
And I guess I kind of drift along
I don't really make plans
Or set goals for myself
Maybe I should
I don't know
In five years
I will be 38
I hope to still be drug and alcohol free
And I hope to have a better handle on my ED
I hope to have my own little place
A little cottage to call my own
I really hope my dogs will still be around
But I will have various animals and pets in my home
I hope to be independent in every sense of the word
I hope I can take care of myself
And not depend on others do much
I would like to have more structure in my day
I hope to have finished a college course
And be looking on to finding employment
I hope to have a small but close circle of friends
Maybe even a boyfriend
I hope to have an active social life
I hope that I will wake up in the morning and look forward to the day ahead
I hope that my health will be good
Both physical and mental
I hope to laugh a lot
To have confidence
And good self esteem
I hope to be able to deal with what ever life throws at me
Without using or drinking
I hope to be something approaching happy
Or at least content
I hope to be happy to be alive
And have no urge to escape my reality
Because my reality is a good one
Phew here's hoping it really will be like that
Thanks for a great question CP x
i hope you have these things too, love jo xx
DeleteThanks Jo Jo
DeleteWe will get there
Baby steps all the way x
Hey Ruby,
ReplyDeleteI really enjoy reading your blog. You have such a way with words.
I was wondering if you were still looking at fostering dogs?
My mum and I foster kittens and it's such a wonderful way to save an animals life and give it a real chance inn forever home.
How is Honey doing?
Hey Anne,
DeleteI haven't looked in to the fostering since I have my number to a shelter
But I haven't heard anything back from them
I did go to my local kennels to see if they have any work going
But they can't take on anyone due to high insurance costs
Honey is doing great
Thanks for asking
She has made such a remarkable recovery
And is now back to get cheeky self
I'm so glad that we decided to travel to see that vet
He did such a great job
And Honey is doing so great
I'm so grateful as I don't know what I would do without her x
do you mind if i ask, when you were struggling, were calories a big thing for you? i don't remember you ever mentioning it but might have missed it.its just the numbers drive me mad, can't eat without counting and recounting backwards and forwards over again.totally ruins any enjoyment and i can't socialise if theres food.yesterday i was starving after work and had to take my daughter out, there were no low calorie left and she said have that one, i kind of yelled i can't have that! of course she doesn't understand and i hope she never does.its my biggest fear. sorry for being so negative lately seem to be in a slump. will be brighter soon. glad honey doing well,they are both so lovely. jo xx
ReplyDeleteI was never really a calorie counter Jo
DeleteFor the first few years of my illness
I was strictly anorexic
I always loved chocolate
So instead of cutting sugar out of my diet
I could food out so I could eat chocolate
I also exercised a lot
But for some reason never calorie counted
I can imagine it's a real pain though
And I know it can be obsessive
I don't know what to say to you about it as I've never really experienced it
I was a little different in that I always had an issue with the full feeling
Eg I would find it easier to eat a chocolate bar than a bowl of veg
Because I can't feel the chocolate
But I can feel the veg
Even though the veg had much less calories
I still find it harder to eat
I honestly don't know how to help Jo
I will have a think about it and get back to you if that's ok? X
no i understand can't bear to be full either, guess i have a lot to think about!
Deletei will figure it out thanks though, everyone so different and they want to put us in one box, don't you think? xx
ps never start with the calories,mess with your head! numbers numbers everywhere, enough on the scale x
Deletegoodness I've talked way too much today, sorry to be a bore ! off to bed now,hubby works nights,and have get up at 5,30/ talk too much i know ,thank you for everything xx will stop now!
DeleteHi Jo,
DeleteI just wanted to let you know that I'm a calorie counter too, and it's absolutely awful. At this point (after about 15 years of it, I guess), I can't not do it; it's like a knee-jerk reaction or something. Trying not to do it and thus not being aware of what i've taken in just makes me anxious, which then makes me even more anxious about eating and thus the vicious spiral downward. I don't know what to do in order to deal with it, so if you figure anything out, please let me know :)
At any rate, I wanted you to know that I share your pain (and I don't have kids, but I have definitely treated my husband in ways i really didn't want to as a result of this issue!).
Amanda
I second this - I am a horribly obsessive calorie counter, and have been since my eating disorder started more than a decade ago. At this point, after the many years of treatment and ups and downs, calorie-counting still remains pretty much the dominant feature of the ED for me. I cannot eat without counting, even when I try to avoid seeking the numbers out. For me, I think that'll be the true of sign of real, robust recovery - finding a way to stop counting calories.
DeleteI have sort of a bunch of questions lol. My first one is, are you still on methadone? I've been on it for almost ten months (same as my sober time) and it saved my life. My doctor said in a year or two I can consider weaning off of it. Just wondering if you still take it or if you have stopped? If you've stopped, was it as hard as they say?
ReplyDeleteSecondly, if you could change anything in your life, would you change the fact that you've had an addiction and eating disorder? (Sounds silly, but sometimes I think overcoming my addiction actually made me a better person and wouldn't change it.)
And lastly,what is your dream in life? If you could do anything at all, what would it be?
Hope you're doing well today! Much love, xx.
Yes I am still on methadone
DeleteHave been for over ten years
It's really helped me get back on track
I've come off it before
And if it's done properly it's not too bad
But I would say the withdrawal is worse than heroin
If I could change one thing
It would be the hurt and pain that I inflicted on my family
My dream in life is to live on a ranch
With horses and dogs
And work there
I hope to have a partner
No necessarily a husband
And maybe some children
I hope to be independent
And able to look after myself
I hope that answerd your question x
It did, thanks!
DeleteI've heard the withdrawal was worse than any opiates, so I've been dreading that moment. I'm thinkning too far ahead though because I still have a year or two to go before I should consider being weaned down. Or maybe the rest of my life. I still have been on it less than a year, but I agree, it totally helped me get my life back together. I had tried so many times to just go cold turkey, but it was an impossible task for me. Too much pain, physical and emotional. So I think methadone saved my life. A lot of people in the recovery community here think it's cheating and don't consider those on it to be sober. But I think that's just ignorance on how it works and stuff. It saved my life. And if I have to be on it forever, then that's okay too. I'd rather be on methadone than back on the streets doing god knows what for money.
Anyway, I think that's a great dream. I have horseback ridden all my life and absolutely love horses. And all animals. So when you achieve it, you'll have to invite me! :) lol.
Have a great day, thanks for answering!
Much love, xx.
I believe seeing the world helps us define ourselves because we see so many different sides to the same situations that we start seeing that there is more than one way to live and be and think.
ReplyDeleteMy question is, have you travelled? If so where, and if not, where would you like to see?
I love travelling so much ^-^
Take care of yourself my dear, I hope you are having a great day <3
Love, Mandy xx
Hey hun,
DeleteI've done a bit of travelling
Australia
The US
The UK
France
Spain
Italy
Croatia
Malta
I do love to travel
I love everything about it
The airport which is ideal for people watching
I love staying in hotels too
Especially the ones with little extras
Have you travelled much hun?
Much love. X
I've been around although not as much as you hehe.
DeleteI've been to England and Scotland, France, Spain and Norway.
I have SO many places left to go and see, I'd love to see Italy and Egypt and I could just go on and on. I want to see Ireland too ^^
Airports are so exciting I find :D And the hotels too, just the whole travelling experience.
Much love my dear ^-^
Mandy xx