In the know

For the first few months of writing this blog

I was pretty much anonymous

But then

And I'm

Not sure why

I wanted to share more if myself

I wanted people to be able to put a face to the words

As I know I love seeing what other bloggers look like

So since then

I've been very open

Heck I have a huge photo of myself on the front of my blog

So I think it's safe to say that I am not anonymous any more

This blog has quite a big audience

And most of the people who read it are other bloggers

And people who I don't know in real life

Very few people that I know read

I know my sister reads from time to time

And my mother and brother will read if I ask them to

But as far as I know

No one else that I know reads it

I'm covering this topic today

As I was telling my doctor this morning about the Levant Tv interview

And he asked me the name of my blog

I told him that it used to be called and then she disappeared

And now it's called and then she recovered

He asked me if disappearing was an analogy for fading away

I said it was

Glad that he had got it

When I came out 

And was telling my Mum about the conversation

I suddenly felt a cold fear

And it hit me

I had just given my doctor my blog address

What the hell was I thinking?

What if he actually reads it?

My Mother joked that if he read it

He would definitely have an insight in to my head 

I mean 

I'm sure it will just go straight out of his head 

But what if some day he's at a loose end 

Looking for something to read

And my blog pops in to his head

I know I've mentioned my doctor from time to time 

And I'm sure he would recognise himself 

I'm half tempted to trawl through my blog 

And delete any posts that mention him

I would actually hate to think that people I know we're reading my blog

Because I know then I would start censoring it

And editing it

So as not to offend anyone 

Or hurt anyone 

And I don't want my blog to be censored 

Honesty is the backbone of this blog

And I would hate to have to change that

I don't know why it's easier to talk or write to people I don't know personally 

Maybe because they are not directly involved

Because they can give an objective insight

Maybe because you can't let some one down who you don't know

Maybe because you can't hurt anyone involved 

Whatever the reason 

It's easier to tell strangers 

With all that said

I was wondering about you

Do people in your real life read your blog?

Or would you prefer they didn't?

Is you blog anonymous?

If so why?

I'd love to know...