The dogs wanted to go out at 5 30am
I made a cup of tea
And promptly fell back to sleep on the couch
I woke for the second time at about 8am
Usually I bring my Mum breakfast in bed
But she beat me to it this morning
And made her own
I then heard my sister up
So asked her if she wanted to go for a walk
Quick cuppas
We piled the dogs in to my car
And set for the nearest beach
We decided to do the cliff walk this morning
For a change
We had a lovely walk
Then headed to the beach at the other end of town
Where there is a little stall selling teas and coffees and toasties
The girl there has such a cool little set up
She is from Wales
And drove over here for the summer season
She has a little trailer
With blackboard menus
Wooden frontage
She even put cushions on the little pillars to sit on
My sister had a coffee
I had a tea
And then we took some photos
Here they are....
(I almost didn't post these photos
As I think I look really chubby
I am just hoping that I really do have body dysphoria
And I don't actually look this way)
My lovely Ruby (as I've come to think of you!)
ReplyDeleteYou are absolutely spot on, 100% correct in identifying BDD as the reason you see yourself as chubby! You are nothing even remotely NEAR 'chubby'! I'm really glad you posted the photos because they really are lovely!
I think you are an amazing inspiration and the fact you have such an acute awareness of how the illness f#@ks with your mind and distorts things (see my last post!) is and will continue to be, your strongest weapon against it.
Thinking of you
firefly xx
Thank you Firefly so much for your kind words
DeleteYou are sweet to say this
I'm kind of hoping that I do have BDD
I must ask my Mum 100 times a day if I am fat
As I'm convinced that I am
It was hard to post these photos
But I won't give in to my ED and not share them with you
Take care and Thank you x
it looks so beautiful where you live, how lovely to have such good walks and beaches near,you seem in such a good place at mo it makes me happy. lots love jo xx
ReplyDeleteIt really is Jo
DeleteI am blessed to live in such a beautiful place
And yes
I do feel like I'm in a good place
And I'm so glad that I can share it with all of you
Love to you too x
Gorgeous photos Rubs, and really, you are like the least chubbiest person! I love your outfit, your jeans are ace! You're so lucky to live so near the sea :) Take care xoxo
ReplyDeleteAw thanks Annie
DeleteI'm always trying to position objects in front of my legs in photos
But my huge thighs are so visible in this photo
But hey
I have to accept myself the way I am
I'm healthy
And that's the main thing
Do you live near the coast? X
Your thighs are definitely not huge! It's just you ED telling you that they are when they clearly are not. I wish you could see how beautiful and wonderful you really are.
DeleteI live about an hour away from the coast, but I don't drive, so I can never get there which is a shame because I always feel a sense of peace by the sea for some reason! I wish I could drive but my confidence is just shot. What do you think about living near the coast? X
I can't imagine not living near the sea
DeleteIt reminds me that there is a whole world out there
And they are other lands and people far away
You're in Wales aren't you?
Is that the Irish Sea near you? X
Yes, lovely wet Wales! I'm actually not too far from the main port for the ferry crossings over to Ireland, yes across the Irish Sea. Wouldn't it be great to do a blogger meet-up!? X
DeleteThat would be so amazing
DeleteSomeday..... X
I hope this means your weather has improved; my relatives said it's been absolutely awful the last few weeks. Jealous of your beach.
ReplyDeleteYou most definitely do not look chubby, but I know the feeling. I feel like I look like an obese Quasimodo is every photo ever taken of me, so I definitely understand!
Glad to see you enjoying your weekend. xo
The weather has improved marginally Mich
DeleteWe manage to get in walks in between the showers
I know
I'm the same
I always seem to turn in to a ogre when the camera is on me
Most of the time I barely look at the shots before I post them
As I know I would be scrutinising them
Good to hear from you
Hope you're doing ok? X
Meh, functioning I guess. :/
DeleteI try to make funny faces if the camera ever reaches me, at least then I can laugh at the photo rather than stress over it!
Hang in there hun
DeleteYou are a star x