Home sweet home

I'm home 

Praise the Lord I am home

I was discharged yesterday at lunch time

My doctor came in the early morning

And told me that my bloods were almost back to normal

And I would be discharged that day

It was welcome news

Hospital life is fine for a while

But there's no place like home

All things were pointing to my being discharged 

I was allowed to eat a low fat diet

I was taken off the drip

I had no pain

And was generally feeling a lot better

And of course 

Hospitals don't tend to keep you one minute more than necessary 

So 

I packed up my little bag

Got dressed for the first time in almost a week 

And made sure to have a little chat with all the ladies before I went

They were especially nice on my ward

Ladies in for all kind of things from kidney stones to bladder problems 

We all bonded over cups of tea

And really looked out for each other 

I wished them all luck

Then went to the day room to wait to be formally discharged 

I was barely out of my bed before it was filled 

In fact there was a girl in the day room waiting for my bed 

They don't mess around in hospitals do they?

My Dad arrived to pick me up

And we continued to wait to speak with doctor and get my prescription

Even though I was feeling better

I still wasn't back to myself 

And was incredibly tired

I had to fight sleep sitting with my dad 

Eventually the doctor came

And spoke to both of us 

He explained that they thought the pancreatitis was as a result of being on my meds for so long

Exacerbated by my ED

And to stay well I needed to watch my diet 

Take it easy 

And maybe try and come off some of the meds 

We thanked the doctor

And made our way home 

There was a flurry of activity when I arrived home

The two workmen who did our kitchen were there 

And they gave me a racous welcome home

And of course Honey and Lea went beserk 

I've havent seen Honey move so fast since she was a puppy 

There were so many people in the house 

They didn't know who to go to first 

After sitting with them for a while 

I went and unpacked my bag 

And changed in to my pjs

And retreated to the couch with a cozy blanket 

Where I promptly fell asleep for the evening 

The rents thought that when I woke up was a good time to tackle me about my lifestyle 

I make no secret of the fact that I lead a very unhealthy life style

My food is nothing short of atrocious

I purge 

I don't get enough vitamins and minerals 

More often than not I am dehydrated 

And basically I am like a grown up child 

I eat what I want 

When I want 

And don't take my health in to consideration one jot

Heck, I only gave up smoking because of the inflated price of them

Not because of my health

I guess when you don't like yourself very much 

You don't really care about the health of your body 

You don't care if you live or die 

It makes no difference to me

But I really need to start taking proper care of myself

No more crisps

No more chocolate 

No more eating what I want 

And definitely no purging 

Which is going to be the toughest part I just know it 

I've also decided to stop weighing 

My scale is not that reliable 

But weighing yourself everyday

And recording it

Can not be healthy right?

Anyway

I don't need a scale to tell me I've lost weight

I just need to look in the mirror to see that 

Anyway

I'll just take it day by day 

I had no appointment with my doctor this morning 

But I rocked up and 9am anyway

And he saw me pretty quickly which I was grateful for 

I got my prescription

And headed to the chemist 

Where I am as I type this

This week has been a bit of an eye opener 

Change has to happen if I want to live 

And I do 

I really do 

As I always say 

Baby steps all the way