Wednesday 29 June 2016

The calm before the storm....

I have yesterday 
Today 
And tomorrow off work 
So far 
Work has been busy 
But manageable 
This Friday 
We are going to have 60 guests 
Many of whom are small children 
A full house 
So it's going to be mental to say the least
My new hours are now kicking in
So from this weekend 
My hours will be as follows 
4pm - 8pm Friday
8am-12pm Saturday
12pm-8pm Sunday
And 4pm - 8pm Wednesday 
This suits me fine 
About 20 hours a week 
And mostly weekends 
So I can fit all my other things around it
My only complaint is that myself and Sinead are not working together at all
We have become friends very quickly 
And text each other when we're not working 
Even though she is only 19
She is smart 
With a lot of common sense 
We get along great 
She texted me yesterday 
To let me know that a group of ladies who were staying with us 
Left a card with €125 in it for the staff
How lovely is that?
It just goes to show 
That people do appreciate your hard work 
That money will go towards a night out for the staff
And just the thought alone is so nice 
I really feel appreciated in work 
Which is such a good feeling 
Because often people don't give positive feedback 
So to get it is amazing 
And makes all my effort and hard work worth it 

Today being Wednesday 
I had horse riding this morning 
The centre is an hours drive from my house 
And today was the first day that I drove it myself 
My Mam came with me 
But I drove the whole way 
It's great to build up my confidence 
So hopefully when I pass my test 
Myself and Fintan can take turns driving 
But bloody hell 
There are some lunatics on the road 
Today 
I saw a man drive through a roundabout 
And another guy over took me on the left hand side 
My nerves were shot!
But I'm glad I did it 
I'm sure it will get easier and easier ea h time 

In other news 
I was in the supermarket with my Mam this week 
They were selling talking scales 
Holy shit 
I can't think of anything worse!
But I had a weak moment 
And put the scale in our trolley 
My Mam said nothing and just gave me a look
I was having a fight in my head 
About whether to buy it or not 
But in the end 
I put it back 
It was a moment of weakness 
And i came to my senses 
And I'm so glad I did 
Nothing wrecks my head more than weighing myself 
No good can come of it

I asked Eilish at riding today 
If it would be possible for me to do two lessons in a Wednesday 
Rather than one 
Just because I travel so far 
And having two lessons would make it more worthwhile 
Age said that it might be too much for me 
But she would think about it 
And maybe bring me out for a half day every week
That would be so brilliant If it worked out 
I just love being out there 
With the people 
Who have shown me what a true friend looks like 
The horses especially Star 
Who has gently coached me from my first lesson back in March 
There is no doubt about it 
Riding has been 
And continues to be a life line
Having made new friends 
At riding 
At work 
I now see that there are some people in my life who I would be better off without 
People who suck the life out of me 
And don't have my best interests at heart 
I know now that I deserve to be treated with respect and kindness 
I will not put up with people using me
Passive aggressively bullying me
Picking me up and putting me down when they feel like it 
No
I will not be a door mat any more 

Having said all that 
I was wondering about you 
Have you ever had to cut people out of your life?
Was it difficult?
And was it worth it?
Do you feel better off without them?
Inquiring minds want to know....

8 comments:

  1. The secret to driving is a copious amount of swearing. :P not going to lie, I struggle doing that, but I let them leave if it's best and keep the door open only if things change. When they're gone I see how good it was for my soul. Believe me, it's tough.

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    1. Ha, love this Eve
      And yes
      I am quite the prolific swearer... X

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  2. Wow, that's nuts! I struggle to do the dishes for three people, let alone sixty! It's awesome to hear you're making friends with your co-workers.
    Cutting contact with people is always hard, even when they're toxic. But I think you know you'd be better off without people who use and abuse you.

    Talking scales?! God, what will they think of next?!

    <3
    xxxx

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    1. I know Bella
      It's going to be mental
      But then
      I've always thrived on crazy..... X

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  3. Cutting off isn't hard, staying off is.

    I hope the decision is worth the pain it's going to take.

    Take care.

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  4. Oh, yes, a talking scale, just what I need... "Get off me, you two!"

    I have had to cut out some people from my life. I don't think it's ever pleasant, but sometimes it's necessary, and usually worth it. I've never regretted it, anyway, but I am a cold fish ;)

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  5. I'm glad you put the scale back. It has never done you any favours.

    Eve is correct about the swearing. And learn to shake your fist with vigor. There are indeed some crazy people on the road.

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