Coco and Lea....BFFs

I visited Coco a couple of times this week

On Thursday with my Mam, the owner, Ruby the dog and Lea

And today just me and Lea

Coco and Lea are fast becoming besties 

Coco loves her

And follows her around the field 

Today they were running and frolicking 

It was just adorable

I brought a flask of tea 

And Coco thought this was fascinating!

As I drank my tea 

Lea lay down beside me

And Coco came over and started to groom her 

I just love how well they are getting on

After Lea's spinal diagnosis 

We were worried for her future 

But she seems to have found a new lease of life with her new buddy Coco

After a bit of investigating 

I have finally found out who owns the little white pony down the road

I have a phone number for him

It's a work number 

So I will try ringing on Monday 

I bought my first pair of 'country boots' this week

They are brown and are really a glorified welly

But they do the job out in the fields and in the yard

So yes 

The city girl in me is well and truly dead

I am now a country girl

And proud of it!

In other news 

I weighed myself this week

I don't know why 

But I was curious 

Seeing the number 

I was indifferent 

It meant nothing 

It wasn't good 

It wasn't bad 

It was what it was 

A number that holds no pleasure or pain for me anymore 

I think that is good 

I now appreciate my body a lot more 

It's strong 

It's capable 

It's able 

It allows me to go so much 

I'm no longer a physically weak girl 

Now I walk

I run

I ride horses 

I lift

I carry 

I fill out my clothes 

And I love it

But it isn't that long ago that I was in a bad place 

I know how it feels to have no hope 

No belief 

No faith

No reason to go on never mind recover 

In my that place it is incredibly difficult to take that first step in to recovery 

It's terrifying 

And the disorder that was a comfort zone 

Has now become a hiding place 

Anything beyond it I'd too much 

And too scary 

But I have to tell you 

If you do manage to take that first step 

The rewards are instant and massive 

Bigger and better than you could ever believe 

Your physical health will improve 

You will feel better 

You will think clearer 

You will make more sense 

Life will make more sense 

You will begin to see that there is life beyond the disorder 

No matter how deep you are in

It's just a matter of having the courage to shut your eyes 

Clench your fists

Lift one foot 

And take that first step 

You won't regret 

I promise you that 

I am now pretty sure that I did the right thing leaving my course 

I have no regrets 

And I am involved with horses more than ever now 

I am content 

I have moments of happiness 

I am ok 

Finally 

I am ok