Thursday, 19 January 2017

Coco meets Lea...

My goodness
It's only the early afternoon
And it's already been an eventful day!
Lea had an appointment with the vet first thing this morning 
It was pretty good news 
Lea isn't in pain
And the meds seem to be working 
She recommended a food supplement 
And possible pet physiotherapist 
But I know swimming is good for it to
So I'd rather do that with Lea
The vet did say that Lea losing some weight would help joints 
It's always a blow to hear that 
As I don't want to be the reason my dog is struggling 
I don't think Lea gets fed a massive amount 
But when she is getting treats and tidbits from so many people 
It all adds up I guess
So we just need to keep an eye on her 
And be mindful with food
She is a trooper though 
She's a good girl 

After a quick cuppa at home 
Myself, Mam and Lea headed off to meet Coco and his owner 
Honey elected to stay in her bed
The drive over takes about 20 minutes 
Cocos owner lives at the  edge of a lake 
And on a bright day like today 
It was just glorious 
We drove up the lane 
And found Coco, his owner and Ruby the three legged dog waiting for us 
We changed in to our wellies 
Which are a must 
Thanks wasn't sure how Lea was going to behave around Coco and Ruby
Ruby was so full of beans 
And Coco seemed to be delighted to have so many visitors and playmates 
We headed in to the field 
Cocos owner has a bucket of feed for him
And Coco danced around him as we walked over to a walled area of the field 
Lea was a gentle giant as ever 
I sat down 
And Coco tucked in to his feed
When he was finished 
He came over to me 
And I had a juicy carrot for him
He thoroughly investigated me 
My hair 
My hands 
My jacket 
My hood 
My hair was in a bun
And at one point he had it in his mouth which was funny!
But even though he is so big 
He is so gentle with it
So there I was 
Sat in the middle of a field 
On a beautiful winters morning 
Lea on one side 
Coco on the other 
Pure bliss!
I couldn't have been happier 
I shit you not 
Cocos owner and Ruby left us then
And got the boat back to his house 
So myself and Mam decided to bring all the animals on a little walk 
We walked around the field 
Coco followed us 
He was so interested in Lea 
And kept trotting over to her 
Then a couple of times 
He broke into a canter which was just adorable 
I too lots of photos 
And a video 
Which I can seem to post 
I will try and figure it out
It was a lovely way to spend a morning 
Coco is slowly but surely melting my heart
I can see so much potential in him
And it's obvious he loves company and attention
As I type this 
I can get the scent of him on my hands 
It's such a lovely smell 
A real country and earthy smell 
I guess now that I live in the country 
I am a country girl
I've probably always been at heart 
As I never felt comfortable in towns or cities 

It just goes to show 
That I made the right decision about my course 
I now know I did the right thing 
I guess I thought that if I gave up the course 
Then I gave up horses 
But that's not the case at all
In fact 
I've been spending more time with horses now than I did when I was doing my course 
Monday I visited the white pony 
Tuesday I had a riding lesson
Wednesday I had horse therapy 
And today I visited Coco
I am happy out 
No stress 
No pressure 
Just a relaxed pace 
And I'm doing it on my terms 

A reader left a comment on my last post that it's a shame I don't post anymore 
I know I don't post as much as I used to
But I do still post at least once a week
So please do check in as I am still writing 
I suppose I don't rely on my blog as much as I used to
And I definitely don't read as many blogs as I used to
But I really want to keep this blog going 
As it means so much to me
It saved my life countless times
As did my lovely readers 
You have been there over the last five years 
Five. Years!
Has it really been that long?
It has gone by so very quickly 
And I am so glad I have a written account of the last few years 
My journey from scared, suicidal, emaciates girl
To healthy and happy woman 
It's been a hell of a ride so far 
And I'm excited to see what life has in store for me 
If nothing it will be interesting 
And that always keeps things fun

Now that things are going well for me
I desperately want to help others who are in a similar situation to what I was 
Whether they be eating disordered
Drug addicted 
Addicted to anything really 
One thing I have learned over the last year 
Is that when you take away the drug
Or the drink
Or the restricting or purging 
A massive hole is left 
And something needs to fill it 
For me 
I took away the purging 
And I quickly filled the hole with shopping 
That was also utter madness 
And thankfully I have stopped the mindless spending 
But when I stopped 
Again there was a hole left 
And this time 
I have filled it with my love for animals 
This is a much healthier hobby/addiction
One that's actually good for me 
So really I guess filling the hole can go either way 
You can fill it with something unhealthy and damaging 
Or you can fill it with good things and healthy things 
That's just my experience 
Ha ha
I just realised I spent the last paragraph writing about filling your hole
But you know what I mean

I off to make a cuppa and relax for a while 
See you on the next post....


  1. Your experience with beautiful and sweet! It's okay you don't update as often. I'm glad you still drop in and write though, as I find so much hope in your posts. You're a great example for the reality (and possibility) of recovery!

    Just this morning I was contemplating on what I want to fill my own emptiness with. Purging and alcohol does leave a rather gaping hole. *sigh* I don't yet know what to do instead, but I'm figuring out that at least I enjoy feeling good and healthy. lol

  2. Good to hear from you SW
    Yes I have fallen in love with Coco
    I think Lea has too

    I have no doubt you will find something to fill that hole SW
    Something that will make you truly happy and content
    It may take time
    But you will get there
    Believe me x

  3. Very smart to bring Lea along. I'm sure they will be great buddies. Very excited for you.

    1. I'm excited too JJ
      Still trying to find you on Facebook lol!
      We will get there eventually... x

  4. It's so hard when they get older. Billy's around Lea's age and he's been slowing down so much this past year or so. We were told we had to cut back on the treats with Silky. She was cheeky though and always managed to sneak food!

    Coco sounds wonderful. I love that she and Lea are getting on so well together. I don't think Blogger supports video, but you could upload it on YouTube and embed it in your post from there.


    1. My phone was upgraded
      And now that I've newly downloaded the blogger app
      It won't let me upload photos either for some reason
      But I'll figure it out

      Coco is stealing my heart Bella
      Did you see the video of him and Lea on FB?
      Hope you doing ok x

  5. This warms the cockles of my heart


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