I wake up refreshed from a good nights sleep
I wake early naturally
On a bad day
I fight the morning
I crave just a few more hours sleep
On a good day
I feel ok about getting up
And can do so without too much hassle
On a bad day I dread the day ahead
And would much rather sleep the day away
On a good day I put on the radio
And sing along to pop music that I am much too old to be listening to
I don't mind telling you that Taylor Swift is my guilty pleasure
On a bad day
I turn in the radio to drown out my thoughts
To stop the noise and negativity in my head
To muffle my thinking
On a good day
I have a shower
And wear fresh clean clothes
On a really good day
I might even straighten my hair
And apply a little bit of make up
On a bad day
I don't even wash
My teeth don't get brushed
And I tie my hair up in a messy pony tail
On a bad day
My personal hygiene definitely suffers
On a good day
I choose my clothes according to how I feel
And make sure I look half way presentable
On a bad day
I throw on whatever
And can't bring myself to look in the mirror
On a good day
I have no urge to weigh myself
And avoid the scale at all costs
On a bad day
I torture myself
And let the number dictate my mood for the whole day
On a good day
I pile Lea and Honey in to the car
And head to beach for a long walk
On a bad day
I still pile the dogs in to the car
And I still walk the beach
But I don't enjoy it at all
On a good day
I will plan my meals
And go shopping for the food
On a bad day
I go to the supermarket
And buy lots of binge food
On a good day
I will get through the day
Having purged a couple of times
On a bad day
It is relentless
On a good day
I will take my meds properly
On a bad day
I will take them all
On a good day
I will go swimming
On a bad day
I won't leave the couch
Never mind the house
On a good day
I might go for coffee with a friend
I might see a couple of friends
On a bad day
I see no one
On a good day
I almost pass as a normal person
On a bad day
I don't even know what normal means
On a good day
I feel alive
On a bad day
I feel nothing
On a good day
I am chatty
I laugh
On a bad day
I withdraw and isolate
On a good day
I feel like I can take on the world
On a bad day
I want the world to swallow me up
On a good day
I feel hopeful and positive
On a bad day
I feel nothing but fear and anxiety
Today is not a good day
Not at all
But I live in hope that tomorrow will be better
And still you made my day less bad cause I got to txt with you....
ReplyDeletePlase hang in there sweetie... It's just one day, 24 hours and you're almost halfway through...
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Always love to hear from my A team
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And yes it's just 24 hours
Tomorrow is a new day
Thank you x
Tomorrow can, and will, be better... or at least that's what I choose to believe.
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I truly hope so
DeleteToday has royally sucked! X
can't say anything helpful just sending big hug xx jo
ReplyDeleteAw, well as long as you still have that little bit of hope, you're good. So sorry today was bad. Hope tomorrow's better.
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Well, tomorrow IS another day. Good days will come.
ReplyDeleteA new day has come....
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