I know my last post probably didn't make a lot of sense
And I can't say any more than that at the moment
I need to get my head head together
I need some time and space to get back on track
I hope you understand
Recent events have really tested me
And where I claim to be in my recovery
Maybe a month ago I could have said I was in recovery
But unfortunately I can't say that now in all honesty
And that is typically me
Going ahead in to situations
Even though people warn me not to
And even though my better judgement tells me not to
I still plough ahead hoping for the best
And forgetting about the destruction it could cause
Please bear with me
I will be back
I promise you back
I just need to do this
I hope you understand
In the mean time......
Love you forever and I'll always be waiting <3 take your time dearest.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Christie
Thank you Christie
DeleteYou are an angel x
:::hugs:::
ReplyDeleteAnd to you dear Tempest x
Deletetake care love from Jo xx
ReplyDeleteThank you Jo
DeleteFor your continued support x
take care of you Ruby *hugs*
ReplyDeleteThank you kitty
DeleteHugs to you too x
Just take care, we'll be here.
ReplyDeleteIt's so comforting to know that CP
DeleteThank you x
*HUGS* Don't be a stranger, okay? I'm always here if you need to talk. Lots of love to you my dear <3
ReplyDeletexxxx
Just emailed you hun
DeleteDid you get it
Don't worry
I'll be in touch
Take care of you x
We all love you and just want the best for you. Take good care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteXxoo
My first time on here in so long & you're leaving! I am proud of you for that though. It's good that you know when you need to take a step back & reevaluate where you are.
ReplyDeleteTake all the time you need to find yourself & get yourself back on track.
You're beautiful Ruby, and just remember, whenever you need friends, you have so many here in the blog world that are here for you!
<3
Kay.
Ruby, I know you've got a rough time ahead, but I think the consequences of trying to hide would be much more devastating than facing up to reality as soon as possible - if it hasn't already come out. There will always be a crash and a return to reality when the escape wears off. Always. There is no getting it out of your system for an addiction.
ReplyDeleteI hope you can find a higher level of accountability while you get your feet back under you and your head straightened out. I really think meetings could help. My own experience with addiction (95% food, 5% two years abusing a legally obtained prescription sleep med) is inadequate to understand your own, but there ARE people who struggle the way you do, who have been exactly where you are. Do you think you can start with one meeting? Just one, don't even think about the future right now. One meeting to remind you the cost of that escape and the reasons to stay here with us.
You've deleted your newer post, so for whatever reason you want privacy right now. It won't bother me if you delete this comment after you read.
Have a puppy pic? (no triggers, just Xander) http://thestormiswithin.tumblr.com/post/111687483239/snow-day-enjoying-the-tropical-30-degrees-just#notes
Take care, Ruby.
I did take it down tempest as I panicked for a moment of who might read it
DeleteBut I just put it back up
I'm just so confused as to what I want
It's my heart v my head
And I hate it
It's such a damn shame that meeting The Boy turned out this way
Thank you Tempest
And yes, a meeting would help
If I could just get myself there
Much love to you x