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Just a quick post this morning

Monday is doctor day as you know

My doctor wasn't very chatty this morning

He asked me how my week went

And how I got on with my new dose

I told him this week went better

But could he please not reduce my methadone this week

He agreed

Last week he said he was going to reduce it by 2mls a week

Which is quite a lot 

He made the point that we were hoping to be completely off it by next Christmas

And now that won't happen

I don't mind though

I would rather be on more methadone and be stable

Than be on less and messing around

So I am still on 36 mls

And that is just fine with me

I came home 

And wrote out some points for my interview this afternoon

They are going to ring me at 3 30pm

And my slot will last around fifteen minutes

I am super nervous 

I just hope I can do you all proud 

And speak honestly and openly

I will do my very best

That's all I can do

In other news

The postman came at about 11am

With One letter for me

My Mum left it on the coffee table for me

I immediately knew what it was

It was from my course

I slowly opened it

And scanned down through the writing

You know what?

I got in!!

I have my place on the course!

Exciting!

I am delighted to have made it on

Now I have some decisions to make

If I accept this place

My disability benefit will be stopped after one year

And I will have to go on Jobseekers

Who very much stay on your back about getting work 

When my payment is stopped

I can appeal it

But that is a nightmare of red tape that I don't want to go through 

The thing is

If my disability is stopped

It will be nigh impossible to get back on it

I was first put on this payment when I went in to hospital for the first time

My psychiatrist wrote to social welfare

And I was immediately put on disability

And it's great to be on it

As they really do leave you alone

No signing on

The money goes straight in to my bank account

No pressure from social welfare

And I also get a travel pass

Which saves me so much money

My case is reviewed every few years

And that is usually just routine questions 

So if I do this course

I will lose that payment

That security

And all the perks that go with it

It really makes no sense to me

But then that's this country for you

I do have other options

I could try and find another course

It's just that I had my heart set on this one

As its specifically for adults returning to education

It's part time

There's a lot of support

And it's near my home

I guess all I can do is find out all my options

Then make an informed decision

I have two months until the course starts

So I will try to make it work 

I am trying to kill time before my interview

It never ceases to amaze me

The things that have happened through my blog

It just goes to show

That if you are willing to put yourself out there

Wonderful things can happen....