The Interview....

As you know

A lady called Dyna Fayz contacted me from Levant Tv

Levant Tv is a Middle Eastern tv station based in London

They were doing an item on eating disorders

And having found me through my blog 

Dyna wanted to know if I would speak to them

Along with a psychiatrist and the mother of a young girl with an eating disorder

I spoke to Dyna last week

She outlined what the discussion would revolve around

And what questions I may be asked

It all sounded really exciting

So I agreed to do it

Dyna informed me that the show was to be recorded yesterday

When they would ring me

And I would participate by phone

I also supposed them with a photo they could show their viewers while I was speaking

Over the weekend 

I wrote out some flash cards for myself

Subjects and topics and words to trigger my brain as to what to speak about 

Yesterday morning 

I saw my doctor

Collected my meds

But did t take any

As I wanted to be as alert as possible

Dyna was due to ring at 3 30pm

So my day was spent worrying and fretting

And generally being all over the place

I arranged my notes on the coffee table

Asked my Mum to stay in the room with me

And waited

Half past three came and went 

My nerves were shot

Eventually 

After 4pm

I got the call

A disembodied voice asked me to hold on for Dyna

I could hear the other interviews taking place

Mostly the psychiatrist

After another lengthy wait

I finally was put on to Dyna

I was super nervous

And I could hear the shake in my voice

She started off by asking me a bit about my story

I couldn't tell you what I said

It was all a blur

I do remember trying to speak clearly and confidently 

I didn't use any of my notes 

And mostly spoke off the cuff 

The mother of the young girl also asked me some questions

About whether the negative voice in her daughters head would ever go away

I tried to be as honest as possible

To give a realistic account of what it's like to live with and recover from an eating disorder

The presenter asked the psychiatrist what advice he would give me

He simply said 

'Find out what you want to be and be it'

I thought this was good advice

And is exactly what I am trying to do at the moment 

And just like that 

It was all over 

I couldn't quite believe it

As I hadn't said half of what I had planned to say

There was so much more that I wanted to cover

Everything written on my notes

The interview lasted about fifteen minutes according to my Mum who was in the room with me

But it felt like seconds  

They told me they would send me information about when you the show is broadcast

We said goodbye

And that was it 

At first I felt disappointed

Because I didn't say half the things that I wanted to say

I felt I had said very little really

But my Mum assured me that I had covered quite s lot

How and ever

I did my best

And I just hope that it will help someone just a little bit

I was completely wound up after the interview

Full of nervous energy

I rang a few people to talk it over with

I feel really good that I did it

Because I was full of anxiety about it

I'm really looking forward to seeing it broadcast

And hopefully I can share it with you too

It just goes to show 

The amazing things that can happen through writing a blog

When you put yourself out there

Wonderful things can happen

I write my blog everyday

Sending my words out in to the abyss that is the internet

I never know who is going to read then

Who is going to comment

Or email

Or get in touch with me

I wake up every morning looking forward to reading my emails

As there is always something interesting to find 

The aim of my blog was always to help others and help myself in the process

I really feel like my story has a purpose

That there is a reason why all this happened

You know?

 

If you want to check out Levant Tv

They have a Facebook page 

But otherwise

I will post the link to the show when I get it

Here's hoping it all turns out ok.....