Girls

I'm late posting today

As I met a friend from treatment this morning

I say she is a friend from treatment 

But she is more than that

She is a friend

No matter where I met her

I hadn't seen this particular girl in a while

So was super excited to see her 

We had a great chat over teas and coffees 

I told her all about my date with The Plumber

And we had such a laugh over it

I now feel at a point where I can laugh about it

And not feel badly at all about it

She was the first friend I've actually spoken to about it

And it was great to get her feedback

It struck me after I met my friend

How important it is to stay connected to our girlfriends 

They say boys come and go

But girlfriends are for life

I certainly value the few real life girlfriends that I have 

And of course all of you

Who have been there for me every step of the way 

There's just something so lovely about meeting up

Chatting 

Gossiping 

Laughing

Today I actually really laughed

Most of the time when I laugh

It's forced

But today was proper belly laughing

And it felt great

My friend is a very worldly lady

Has travelled a lot

Always looks immaculate

I remember when I met her in treatment 

She was always so well put together

And so thin

But she was always that way

No matter what she ate

We clicked pretty much straight away

And both living near each other

Have kept in touch ever since

I remember when I first started meeting her

I was just out of treatment 

Still underweight

Still very entrenched in my illness

Just driving the half hour to meet her was a huge challenge

I remember arriving to meet her

My nerves shot

I was a walking ball of anxiety

I couldn't relax 

When I was with her

I was worrying about the drive home

But thankfully things have improved drastically since then 

My confidence with driving and meeting people has improved

I feel a bit more sure of myself 

I still have a long way to go

But I've made a start 

And that is the main thing

Also

Just to update you on my wanting to lose weight

I wrote that post directly after weighing myself

And I felt like a whale

However 

After calming down 

I realised what a stupid and silly idea it was

And I'm not going to try and lose any 

As  I always say

I'm going to go by how I feel

Rather than what the scale says

And I feel pretty ok

So let's go with that