Prior preparation prevents poor performance

So it's Monday again

Start of another week

It's hard to believe that it's almost October 

Next thing will be Halloween 

And then 

Well you know what's next after that

I won't say the word 

As I know a lot of people hate that time of year

I love holidays 

Especially Halloween

And the C word

So it's a great time of year for me in that respect

And speaking of holidays 

Tomorrow we are off to Turkey!

We depart at precisely 5 20am tomorrow morning 

I love getting up at an unGodly hour

Getting the bus

Going to the airport

I love it all 

Airports are such interesting places

Especially for people watching 

Packing started earlier this week

I threw everything in to my case

But when I saw how neatly my Mum and sister packed 

I took everything out again

And started fresh

I also did a cull of my clothes

As I had everything but the kitchen sink in there 

I'm a terrible packer

I always bring far too many clothes

I bring clothes I haven't worn in years 

You know 

Just in case 

Better to be safe than sorry I guess

I was in the doctors waiting room this morning 

And there was a girl in there with a really cool hair cut 

Her hair was shaved like mine 

Except on both sides

So the hair in the middle was like a small Mohawk

I am seriously considering getting it done when I come back 

I just have such an urge to do something drastic with my look

Something totally different for me

I guess I am playing around with my lol for a few months now 

I just want to experiment 

And change my look

For so long 

I concentrated on my weight

It was my be all and end all

But now I want to be defined by something other than my weight 

In a moment sadism 

I went to weigh myself the other day

But to my delight 

My scale wasn't working

Do I have no earthly clue what my weight is 

And you know what?

I have absolutely no shit to give

Not one iota 

And it feels great 

I was trying on clothes for my holiday

Dresses and skirts and tops 

I am slowly but surely finding out how to dress my shape in the best way

And developing my own style

It's great the way you can play around with clothes 

And find out what suits 

For Turkey

I am bringing lots of skirts and light trousers 

As well as a couple of dresses

While trying on clothes 

I was able to see what looks good on me

What is not so good 

And was able to do all this without having a major meltdown about how I look

That my friends 

Is progress

I had to get a letter from my doctor this morning

To say that I will be carrying 448mls of methadone

It's a controlled drug

And it's also in liquid forms so they always check it

But I have been all around the world with my meds

And have never had a problem

I was home

And putting my letter in my hand bag

When I found a letter from last when I went to the UK

I was surprised to see that I was on ten mls less of methadone back then

That is a distinct lack of progress 

And is in fact going backwards

It makes me wonder will I ever come off this drug

And the thing is

I would be perfectly happy to stay on it for the rest of my life

Once an addict

Always an addict 

I'm assuming I can blog from Turkey 

I will keep you all updated 

And of course supply you with many many photos