Blogger seems to be falling apart
Breaking down
Coming apart at the seams
Very few of us are posting these days
And those that are posting are struggling massively
Every day it seems another person drops off the face of the blogosphere
I remember a couple of years ago
There was a thriving community
Now
It seems there are very few of us left
I hope the ones who left
Have left for a better life
That they don't need this community anymore
Because they are getting on with their lives
The reality is some will have recovered
Some will be living somewhere between the disorder and recovery
And some won't recover
And will possibly die
It's a stark reminder that this illness is not a fad
Or a phase
Or a diet
It's a deadly mental illness that destroys lives
If these ladies did go to find recovery
Then I am very glad
I would rather have a quiet blogosphere
Than a blogosphere full of very ill people
I wish them every health and happiness
And hope they find a life beyond ED
Christmas is a tough time
We need to stick together
Support each other
Look out for each other
Our community is dwindling
And we need to look after the ones who are left
As for me
I'm doing ok
Slowly trying to claw back the ground I lost
I'm still weighing which is a problem
I know I do a lot better when I avoid the scales
For a while there
The only thing in the day I looked forward to was standing on the scales in the morning
How sad is that?
Apologies for the short posts these days
I don't want to go on and on about how I'm struggling
I'm hoping that soon
I will be back on track
And back to myself
Living my life
Volunteering
Going on dates
Spending time with friends
All that good stuff
Thank you for staying with me
I appreciate it more than you know
True what you say about this being an illness... I do remember back in the heyday of blogger that there were a ton of silly little girls that would email me asking for tips and support so that they could starve themselves. Silly little girls. A lot of teenage girls on blogger who saw this as a diet method. Or something glamorous. I'm glad to see that there are fewer of those around. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you're still around! Xo
I'm glad you are too Piggy
DeleteLove ya x
I'm sad that Blogger seems to be a fading network. There are very active ED and fitness (and deliberately overlapping, and accidentally overlapping) communities on Tumblr, but I am wrestling to see if there is a network of people who are focused on healthy living that don't endlessly glorify looks over function and reblog endless streams of bodyspo.
ReplyDeleteOne *fitspo* blogger turned out to be a raging bulimic with a profile on a huge pro ana site mocking everyone who thought she had used healthy methods to become frighteningly thin. Unfortunately, I know what that website is because of her, and it is the first very active ED site I've encountered in a long time. It's alluring in a very sick kind of way.
I feel like I'm back at square one with a few things and I definitely miss having regular readers and commenters, few though they were.
Me too Tempest
DeleteI don't use Tumblr at all
Do you have an account?
I'm almost tempted to ask you the name of that site
Like you say
It's like watching a car crash
You can't quite take your eyes off it x
hi ruby will always stay and read pls don't stop blogging and trying, sorry not been commenting things not so good at home. love you lots jo xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Jo
DeleteI know you are there
Sorry things are tough
And also haven't been texting much as it sends my phone bill through the roof
Am trying to find another plan
Stay well x
I'm about to release a new one. Stay tuned? :)
ReplyDeletePersonally it's mostly because of the holidays that I'm in this slump (together with my flooded kitchen which still hasn't been dealt with).
ReplyDeleteDecember is just one long downhill slope until I crash into Christmas Eve (which is the big day in Sweden) followed up by Christmas Day (when my dad died).
I also think that things like tumblr and instagram draw more people nowadays.