One from Lebanon
And one from Singapore
Both from readers who decided to reach out
I can't tell you how much I love getting emails like this
From readers
On the other side of the world
Who read my words
Relate
Identify
Who follow my story
I know a small amount of you
Some I know really well
A core group of you who post regularly
And read every day
But as I wrote yesterday
There are so many more of you that I don't know
Those of you who read in silence
Who don't comment or email
So I am inviting you today
To reach out
To beak your silence
Let me know who you are
Where you are from
What age you are
Maybe you are a young girl
Or maybe you are a mama yourself
And are worried about your or your child's behaviour
Maybe you are a new reader
Or maybe you have followed me from the start
Maybe you have an ED
Or some other mental illness
Maybe you are scared
Alone
At the end of your tether
You might be holding on by your finger tips
Or maybe you have already let go
And you are free falling
On the other hand
Maybe you are in recovery
Or at least heading that way
Maybe you are somewhere in between
Wherever
And whoever you are
I'd love to hear from you
Let me know who you are
What keeps you going?
What scares you?
What are your hopes and dreams?
What makes you tick?
I share so much of myself here on this blog
I would love to hear from some of you
Comment
Email
Text
Smoke signal
Morse code
Whatever the medium
Let me know who you are....
I wish people still used smoke signals.
ReplyDeleteMe too Mich
DeleteSuch fun......! X
So uhm what's up with free verse-like prose writing. Like you're writing a narrative. I know you only finished high school but don't you at least know how to write a proper paragraph?
ReplyDeleteSo uhm
DeleteYou obviously don't know me or my writing style
I've been blogging for four years
And have always written in the same style
You obviously have led a very sheltered literary life if you've only ever read writing that follows a strict format
Try again anonymous
You have failed to bother me one iota.....
I always thought your style was done on purpose...
DeleteIt's poetic. I don't usually like poetry but I like the way you write. It's different.
Ellen Hopkins writes in that style in her books. They're a story line written in a poetry format. Honestly the reason I could read them so steadily I believe.
DeleteWhen I first read this (it's my first time visiting your blog) it reminded me of the writing format and I was both attention grasped and could easily read and make sense of it. Keep at it!
Not trying to bother you. Just giving constructive criticism. I also noticed that you can't take criticism well. Try working on that.
ReplyDeleteThere's a huge difference between giving someone constructive criticism and being a smart arse
DeleteBut maybe you're like me and only finished high school
And your brain doesn't stretch that far
Look
If you don't like me or my blog or my writing style or the fact I don't lie down and let people walk all over me
You know what you can do
Also
How is the view up there on your high horse?
This is what I'm talking about. You get little non-positive comments like mine and you get very upset. Not everyone's going to give you positive feedback. I'm amazed with your recovery but I think you're taking too many liberties. Your mum's getting old and she doesn't have much years ahead. She needs to enjoy life without you holding her back. I'm sorry to say this Ruby.
DeleteHow exactly am I holding my mother back?
DeleteAnd what liberties am I taking?
yawn yawn anon
Deletealso think you mean many years ahead not 'much' sorry just bad grammar bothers me
Deletetotally agree. ruby is surely a generally lovely person, who has been through a lot, but she can't take the slightest, even most constructive form of criticism. but she is always great at having an excuse or justification for everything.
Deleteit's just - sometimes commenters are trying to help. and getting an occupation of some kind would be good. and instead of finding countless excuses you should start, ruby. otherwise you will be stuck in this rut forever. you might be too ill to work 5 days 8 hrs BUT you could start with ONE writing course, or two hours of volunteering per week. just start. no matter how low your confidence it will get lower and lower BY not doing anything. avoiding makes it worse. and your illness.
all the best
You guys realize how much traffic you're bringing to Ruby's site? Keep at it and she'll be high traffic in no time! You're too afraid to reveal yourself. If you're going to give constructive criticism you don't hide your identity. Makes you appear like a coward stirring up drama, while hiding behind the cape on your high horse. How is the view by the way?
DeleteLittle late to adding to this, but I wrote in a similar style as she does and I'm a little under a year away from my masters soooo...
DeleteHmm.. Seems like someone who knows you IRL. Cowardly, very cowardly indeed.
DeleteI was thinking I would send you a carrier pigeon.
ReplyDeleteHa!
DeleteLove that idea Eve x
hi ruby, always swinging between recovery and meltdown and always reading. always find something in your writing to give me hope even on your dark days .
ReplyDeletewould love to blog myself but don't think i would come up with enough ideas, so , xxx
Thank you for reading and commenting today
DeleteIt means a lot
I wish you well with your recovery
Baby steps.... X
i commented, you said we could/should email, but you never replied. I now you are asking for more messages. maybe I was not interesting enough. sad. we are all fragile. not only you.
ReplyDeleteMarks I genuinely didn't see your comment or email. That's why I didn't reply, I just emailed you, please write back...
DeleteSorry Marla
DeleteSilly auto correct
are you ok ruby? feel you had rough time yesterday, i wish you wouldn't answer these comments, thats what they want. you know nearly all of us think lots of you and know your heart. hope you not down xxx
ReplyDeleteA lot of jerks here today i see.
ReplyDeleteWe could relate a lot I feel.
ReplyDeleteI'm Micaela, you can call me Harlynn. Or Micaela I really don't care. I'm a manic depressive bipolar with social anxiety. Anorexia took over me at a time but the cutting came back. I feel strange posting this public...but I can't find the right coping skill. I need help.
- After experiencing my cousins suicide and the family's outcome, my mother keeps me strong. I couldn't put her through that.
- The majority of the time I'm afraid and don't know what of. In general I'm afraid of being alone...or fat...
- My hopes are for my significant other and I to raise a family when we're ready. I've never been in loved or felt so loved. My dream is to perform circus arts and currently I pursue child care. I had gigs to perform all last summer, but I had some medical issue that prevented it. Okay an abortion. All my gigs flew by while I puked up everything I ingested waiting to no longer be pregnant.
- What makes me tick is when others associate with another individual they know will only cause unnecessary drama. I snap from a minor thing. For instance when my step bro put my wet laundry in a dirty tub of water instead of putting mine in the dryer when he went to do a load. That wasn't why I was already ticked, but the small things make me snap.
I've never opened up like this..at least to other bloggers. I hope to see more inspiring posts and hear from you! I think I could use somebody like you to talk to...
- Harlynn
mindyourmadness.blogspot.com
RUBY!!!!!!!!! I have been off the methadone (and everything) since shortly after christmas!! I know it is early days but i felt I needed to tell you!!! YOU motivated me so much!!! Your honesty and openness about your situation made me want to come off it so hard, i was so scared to remain on it, to be dependent on visits to a doctor forever. Because I want to go to uni,(you can't study properly on methadone, you simply can't) i want to have a job, a life, and without your blog I would have never been so aware of all I am already involved in.
ReplyDeleteTHANK YOU SO MUCH! I have CRAVINGS my mind is not off it,but i keep myself busy, finding course, trying to meet clean people, i even visit group therapy.
The world is falling apart and people are dying of more horrid things - i do not want to waste my life any longer for THIS. Thank you love. I hope you understand what I am trying to say. I have been reading your blog since last summer and it opened my eyes and the consequences of ED and addiction and made me stop drifting...And you will get better, too, you know so much, you will put it into practise, i just know this. You are fabulous!
Sorry I still do not have a gmail account and a family that stalks me that's why I am commenting like this. But Ruby knows I am not a shitty anon!
xxxx
Well done! I wish you would write, so inspiring to see someone come through the other side x
DeleteI tried to comment on this (I thought I did...?) but it appears my comment vanished. Anyway, I'm here! I'm here! I caught up on your blog! :D . . . ______ .. __ . _ (that's morse code. no idea what I said, lol)
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