Doctor

As I wrote in my last post 

I did a really silly thing yesterday 

And accidentally took two days methadone 

Instead of one 

It was a genuine mistake 

I had just come in from work 

Was very tired 

And just didn't think 

I then panicked 

As I realised that I was now one day short 

I am not working until 5pm today

And I had no appointment with my doctor 

And knew I wouldn't get one 

So I decided to head to the surgery first thing this morning 

And bypassed the receptionist 

And went and sat outside my doctors room 

I know that's a bit cheeky 

But it was a special circumstance 

He came in with his first patient 

And have me a nod when he saw me 

When the patient came out 

He called me in 

I apologised for ambushing him first thing on a Monday morning 

And explained it was a bit of an emergency 

I told him what I had done 

And thankfully he understood 

And write me out a new script straight away 

This has never happened me before 

And I was so glad that he saw me 

And believed me 

As I'm sure it could have looked like I was just looking for me meds 

I was very grateful though 

They he saw me 

And gave me the script with no questions 

I thanked him for seeing me 

And went in my way 

I guess I am very lucky 

That I have a great relationship with my doctor 

And he will see me at a moments notice 

I know that it is not typical that a doctor will do that 

But 

I have been seeing him every week for over ten years 

And I don't cause any trouble 

Yes 

I can be awkward when it comes to reducing meds 

But I am always honest with my doctor 

And I don't take the piss at all

I'm incredibly grateful to have an understanding and empathetic doctor

Not every one does 

In other news 

I have had a lot of very interesting and insightful comments on my blog over the last few days 

It seems like the direction of my blog is changing 

And so are my readers and comments 

After my last post about horse riding 

And the instructor 

Someone left a very interesting comment 

I think it was Shelby if I remember correctly 

She wrote about how people outside of family, therapists, nurses and doctors 

Can be opinionated 

Bossy 

Rude even 

But that's life for you 

I think it's a very interesting point 

Thus far 

The people I have encountered 

Are mostly family of course 

My doctor 

My psychiatrist

My counsellors 

Staff in treatment centres 

People who care 

And are very kind and gentle 

Now I am out in the big bad world 

Working 

And putting myself out there a lot more 

So of course I am meeting a wide variety of people 

And not everyone is as tuned in to me as say my family 

And that's perfectly fine 

I don't tell everyone I meet about my issues 

That wouldn't be right 

So people can be assholes 

That's life

Thankfully 

The people I've encountered so far 

Have been amazingly friendly and kind 

Especially at work 

My co workers are so lovely 

Always willing to help out 

And good craic too

But of course I have met some people who aren't so nice 

Not so much in work 

But in every day life 

And that's fine 

It's unrealistic to presume that we will get on with everyone 

Not everyone will get on

And not everyone will like us 

That's just the way it is 

So yes 

My life is a hell of a lot more interesting  now 

I am making new friends 

My confidence is growing a little bit every day 

And it feels so good to have s purpose 

A reason to get up in the morning 

To have my own money 

That I earned and worked hard for 

It's such a satisfying feeling 

And also having a pay cheque every week is a bonus 

Actually having a bit extra money is amazing 

I don't have to scrimp and save

And I can treat  myself now and again 

So all in all 

Life is good 

My life is full 

With work 

With my hobbies 

Horse riding 

Writing 

My dogs 

I feel good 

Fulfilled 

Content 

Happy even 

Long may it last.....