Meeting

I'm going to do it 

I'm finally going to do it 

After over a year of avoiding it

And putting it off 

I'm going to go to a meeting this evening

My Mum is coming for support

I feel I need someone just to be there 

To talk me out of it if I decided to back out

No better woman than my mother for this 

I can't lie

I feel scared

Beyond anxious

And my nerves are shot

I'll go

But I don't think I'll speak

The goal is to just be there

To listen 

To soak up the recovery 

And the positivity 

To connect with others 

And do something good for myself 

I'll be leaving at 5 30pm

For the meeting at 6pm

Until then 

I am trying to stay busy 

And keep calm 

Wish me luck

I'm going to need it.....